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The night was dreary as the rain came down
She said 'Let's go for a ride away from town.'
All through the ride, she had nothing to say
It was almost as if something stood in her way.

Then suddenly it came, out of the blue
'My parents said I had to break up with you.
I'm sorry,' she said, 'I can't pretend
My parents said our love must end.'
She took off his ring as tears came from his eyes
At the same time, the fear of losing her began to rise.
With tears threatening to fall, he held them back
As he unconsciously parked the car on a railroad track.
He wrote something on a piece of paper
He held her hand and said 'read it later.'
He always wished they would never part.
He said in a sad voice 'You just broke my heart.'
She opened the door and walked out into the rain
That's when she saw the lights of the train.
Realizing too late what she had sighted,
With the blink of an eye, metal collided.
All she could remember was blood running red
And someone saying 'I'm sorry, he's dead.'
The ambulance sounded like an agony cry
Then she read the paper and it said 'Without you . . . I'd die.'

So take thiS razor and sign your name across my wrist' so everyone will know who left me like this.*
So next time when you look at my wrist and say nobody in this world thinks about you, you can remember - i do.*

Although I mite act like it doesnt hurt.. Your words cut me deeper then any of my knives..

These bandages cover more than scrapeS . cuts and bruises from regrets and mistakes

what'd you expect.. a perfect child? With pretty scars all over my wrists, im sorry, i didn't mean to hurt you..

Now that I've felt this way it seems as if forever, pain or love no longer efect me. After being hurt so many times I feel almost nothing, and the funny thing about is, most of those times I was the one who hurt myself.

I'm staring down at the scars I have, the scars that you left me with..

Yeah i gotta scar i can talk about.. in fact, i have many.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still drawn on the cold window pane so they cast their lines on my bed and lines on my face."

I feel like hanging myself with a barbed rope, on the tallest and shadiest tree, swinging from left to right, with a smile on my face. I hope you are happy now..

[i'd rather bleed with cuts of love then live without any scars]

So cut my wrists and black my eyes. So I can fall asleep tonite and die. Because you kill me. You know you do, you kill me well. You like it too, and I can tell. You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Nothing Ever Went Rite I Was So Fed Up With This Shyt So Tired Of This Life

FuCkiN HaTe ThiS LiFe SoMeTiMes I tHiNk It wOuLd Be EaSiEr JuSt 2 GeT a kNiFe I DoNt KnOw WhAt To Do I'm CrYiN EvErY NiGhT It wOuLd JuSt Be EaSiEr If I wAs OuTta SiGhT

No OnE hErE caN sEe mY tEaRs ..ThE pAiN tHaTs bEeN aRoUnd FoR sO mAnY yEaRs

I'll be cryin & no one will seem to care ~Its just like no one is even there ~I'm sittin alone in my room thinkin damn lifes not fair ~should i try to stay alive, or just kill myself and die? ~All this shyt that goes around makes my life full of dispair

-I JuSt DoNt LaUgH the WaY i UsEd To- -My TeArS ArE MaNy, My sMiLeS aRe FeW-

-I JuSt DoNt LaUgH the WaY i UsEd To- -My TeArS ArE MaNy, My sMiLeS aRe FeW-

People create too much drama~ ~and they expect there 2 be no pain~ ~but the emotions i have inside now~ ~are really hard to explain~

...LoOk iN My eYeS... ..LoOk iN My hEaRt.. .LoOk iN My SoUL. ItS aLL ToRn aPaRt

Some days wouldn't be special if it wasn't for the rain. Joy wouldn't feel so good if it wasn't for the pain Death has gotta be easy because life is hard It will leave you physically, mentally, and em0tionally scarred

SoMeTiMeZ i JuSt WiSh i cOuLd WaLk OuT tHa DoOr AnD nOt HaVe To WoRrY nO mOrE CaUsE aLL Da ThIiNgS i BeEn ThRoUgH i CaNt dEaL wiTh ThEm LiKe i UsEd tO AnD wHeN iM sTraiGhT uP fEeLiN LiKe shit No LonGa Am i AbLe tO dEaL wiTh It

I hang my head and I advertise A soul for sale or rent I have no heart, I'm cold inside I have no real intent.

So often in a day, i stop to pray to the Lord To hear my cries and hopes to see the day when i can surpass the darkness of reality and to sit by a cloud with an angel who can caress my pains away

Even in laughter.. the heart can be in pain

JuST CuZ SoMeoNe LooKZ LiKe THey*Re HaViN a BRiGHT SuNNy Day... oN THe iNSiDe THey CouLD Be SCReaMiN CuZ iT aLL aiNT oKay...

Have you ever felt so alone that nothing makes sense Well thats how I feel now I feel as if I'm facing everything by myself With nothing but tears and a fake smile

-¤Smiles outside¤- •Inside full of fear• ~Hidden by lies~ øtrying to cover tearsø

(¯`·._)what's misery? it*s when you don*t keep your((chin up)) and, i.n.s.t.e.a.d, give up all you*ve got to [[ fall to the trauma]]

have you ever had that empty feeling inside of you.....like no one cares or loves you back feeling ; as if you would of c r i e d .. no one would be there to wipe away the t e a r s

im so tired of pretending everything is okay .. my tears are starting to show and my smile is f a d i n g ' a w a y *

EvErYoNe SeE's WhO I ApPeAr To Be BuT OnLy a FeW kNow tHe R e A L Me U' oNLy sEe' WhaT I cHoOsE To sHow TheRes sO mUcH -bEhInD mY s M i L e y o u j u s t d o n t k n o w

Buried Myself Alive u almostt always pick the best tiiime / to drop the worst lines / u almost mde me cry again this time another false alarm red flashing lights / well tthis time im not going to watch myself die / ii thinkk ii made iit a game to play your game and let myself cry / buried myself on the inside / so i could shut u out 4 a long tiiime. the used-buried myself alive

SoMeTiMez i LiE aWaKe aNd tHiNk -WhY cAnT LiFe bE fAiR- i cRy mYsELf tO sLeEp aT NiGhT -n WaKe tO a NiGhTmaRe-

;* can it Be Theres some sorT of error *; hard t0 stop the surmounting terr0r is it really the end, not some crazy dream somebody pleaSe tell me that i`m dreaming it`s not so easy to stop from screaming but words escape me when i try tO speak teArs They flow but why am i crying .]] ..·:- after all i am not aFraid of dying *../ don`t believe that there is never an end

the same old that brings me down another day in this gossip town feelin like ive been used trying to find a better way to make it through this in day |[ tears ]| are the words my heart uses to |[ explain ]| when even my fake smiles cant cover up my |[ pain ]|

rock bottom is when u`ve had it up to here* ur mad.. enuff to scream but sad enuff to t e a r

Some people have one of those days ... I have one of those lives."

"Sometimes I lie awake at night and I ask, 'Where have I gone wrong?' Then a voice says to me, 'This is going to take more than one night.' " - Charlie Brown

"I love rain because it hides my tears so well."

"If I had one wish it would be to have no reason to make one."

"On the outside I'm always smiling, but on the inside I'm always dying."

"I think I've been true to everybody else but me."

"When I was younger, crying always seemed to be the only answer, now that I'm older, crying seems to be the only option."

"The only thing standing between me and total happiness is reality."

"There is a voice, that has no name. It comes with evening or behind the rain. I have no time now, to stop and explain, I just keep movin, cause it helps to ease the pain. The night has music that calls to me, across the canyons of an endless sea. I seek the shadows, of yesterday. Today can't hold me, so I must be on my way. Speak to me softly but tell me no lies. I see tomorrow shining in your eyes. I have no time now to stop and explain, I just keep movin cause it helps to ease the pain."

"There is only one rain cloud in the sky …and it’s raining on me. Somehow I’m not surprised." - Eeyore

"They have no idea what it's like to wake up every morning afraid they're going to live." - Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel

"You know, I say I'm okay. My mouth moves and joyful little meaningless words fall from it. Everything's okay. But inside I'm screaming out for help. Screaming for someone to save me. My shouts are deafening, yet, no one seems to hear them." - Jacqueline Kelly

"I'm that girl that's always happy -- the one who never has problems, and when I do, they don't get to me. Everyone sees me as the one they can count on to put a smile on their face because as far as they know, I always have one on mine. No one looks any deeper than that." - Michelle

This is where I say good-bye, this is where my story ends. And if there is one thing I've learned from life, it's that it gets you in the end."

"I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any of me left. Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more."

"You say I'm always so happy, and that I'm good at what I do, but what you'll never realize is, I'm a dang good actress too."

"It's one of those days. Again." - Eeyore

"Do you think it is easy being me? Do you think it’s easy putting on the act that I do every day? I smile when all I want to do is cry … I laugh when all I want to do is die … I want to tell everyone how my world falls apart each night when I am laying in bed with tears in my eyes, pleading with God to help me. I want to let everyone know what it is like to be me, pretending to be happy … pretending to like myself. If it was up to me, I wouldn’t be pretending, I would actually be happy. Too bad it’s not …"

""I can't take it anymore. Everyone thinks I'm indestructible; the girl who never flinches; the girl who always has a smile on her face; the girl that's gone through so much yet doesn't have one scar -- and I'm tired of it! I don't want to live behind a wall of laughter and smiles anymore. I want people to understand me. I want people to understand how hard it is to be me and to have to deal with all this crap and still be expected to be happy. It's not fair. Why is it that everyone else can just fall apart but I have to be the one to keep it together?"

"You never see my tears, but that doesn't mean I don't cry. You never feel my pain, but that doesn't mean I don't hurt. You only see me smile, and that doesn't mean that I am happy." - Michelle Burns

"Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? you don’t want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. people have stopped being comforting.. and being alone never was. at least when you're alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who wont take 'I don't know' for an answer. you feel the way you do just BECAUSE. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait." - Lora M. Heacock

"All my life, I have felt like there was some part of me missing and I felt that everyone could tell, like there was some hole in me, and everyone could see through it, like I wasn't finished or something." - Boy Meets World

I can't do this anymore. I've been strong, now I just can't. No more calm and cool. I can't lie anymore. I'm not as strong as you thought I was.I'm breaking down ... and there's nothing I can do

Sometimes it hurts more to smile in front of everyone than to cry all alone.

you only know what u can see, but really you have no idea what its like to be me

you know that girl who is always lost. the one with the pretty smile no one can tell is fake? that girl who seems to be so strong, but daily continues to break? you know, that girl who is always there, and seems to have no problems of her own? the one who holds back the tears, until you are off the phone? that girl that is in love with a girl who tries to understand, that girl who if u reach out always pulls back her hand?. well what a lonely life, what a sad girl, she must be, maybe you didnt realize it, but that girl is me

i dont know whats wrong with me, its like i cant accept reality, i always want more then i have, i always hold out for the one thing thats the farthest from my reach, i always come back to fight even when theres no energy left in me to care, i can never seem to give up, I’m to stubborn to lose, i continue to hurt myself even when i know what it does to me, i continue to keep going, knowing that it will all catch up to me one day

i KeEp SiLeNt EvEn WhEN iM sCrEaMiN iNsIdE CuZ ThE tHiNgZ tHaT dRiVe mE cRaZy i HaGoTz a sMiLe On MaH FaCe

A tWiNkLe iN mAh EyE OnLy ThE TrU KnOw WhEn I WaNNa BrEaK DoWn n CrY Ve No ChOiCe BuT tO hIdE

Your life is full of hurt and pain all your problems drive you insane. No reason to sit and wait for the end time after time getting hurt once x-» again «-x

You see my soul it's kind of gray. You see my heart, you look away You see my wrist, I feel your pain. You know my cheeks aren't just wet from the -rain-

Ya NeVeR kNo WhO u CaN tRuSt.. CuZ tHeRe’S gIrLz ArOuNd HeRe WhO tALk tOo MuCh

i dOn’t knOw what i’m dOing anymOre i’m feeling like a little girl caught up in emOtiOn i’m Out Of cOntrOl

i DoNt knO wUt iM dOinG n E mOrE I dOnT kNo WuT i WaNnA SeE.. mY WoRlD UsE 2 b WoRth LiViNg FoR n NoW iTs HaRd EnOuGh JuS 2 b *ME*

i KeEp SiLeNt EvEn WhEN iM sCrEaMiN iNsIdE CuZ ThE tHiNgZ tHaT dRiVe mE cRaZy i HaVe No ChOiCe BuT tO hIdE

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just 'cuz someone looks like they're havin' a bright and sunny day on the inside they could be screamin' 'cuz it ain't all okay.

ThE pAiiN // iiT jUsT wOnT gO aWaY No MaTtA hOw MuCh ii TrY // Or HoW mAnY dAySz ii WaiiT iiT iiSz DriiViiNg Me To ThE liiMiiT // WhiiCh ii CaN nOt TaKe ii NeEd Ta EnD mii LiiFe // WiiT eiiThEr A RoPe Or BlAdE AfTa All // MayBe iiTsZ nOt ThE eNdLeSs PaiiN MayBe iiTsZ mii UsElEsS liiFe ii CaNt TaMe

` its all i ever hear; be a good girl; just behave; sit up straight; stand up tall; never falter; never fall; stay in school; make the grade; never fail; never fade; be a' hero; be a star; be *everything* but what you a r e

she can't hide 'no matter how hard she tries, her secret disguised behind the lies. 'and at night she crys away her pride, with eyes shut tight staring at her inSide. all her friends know why she can't sleep at night, 'all her family asking is she alright. all she wants to do is get rid of this hell, well all she's got to do is stop kiddin herself. she can only fool herself for so long, she can only fool herself for so long, 'she can only fool herself for so long. are you too weak to face me? 'she can only fool herself... -linkin park'

The little things aren't always happy in the end tha world if full of emptiness an people just pretend i wish that life was better and i try to make them see [ dont just judge me by my looks ] ..theres so much more to me..

I know just how to whisper i know just how to cry I know where to find the answers and i know just how to lie i know just how to fake it i know just how to scheme i know just when to face the truth and when to *stick to dreams

im sick and tired of pretending that everythings okay my tears are startin to show and ma smiles fadin away

force a smile blink away the tears im suppoused to be strong supposed to have no fears but im finding it so hard not to frown im such a strong person why am i breaking down?

I gEt SmIlEs WhErEvEr I gO bUt ThErE iS sO mUcH eMoTiOn I dUn ShOw i SmIlE cUz I dUn WaNt nEbOdY tO kNo ThAt Im CrYn InSiDe No OnE sEeS mY tEaRs FlOw iM nOt JuSt aNoThEr GrL wHo GoT hEr HeArT ToRn ApArT tHeReS mUcH mOrE tHeN tHaT i CaNt EvEn StArT sO dA nExT tImE u LoOk At Me LoOk A lIl ClOsEr tHeRes MoRe DeN mEeTs tHe EyE

surrounded by her friends in school she feels free, with no worries being her loud crazy self smiling at all her friends that walk by laughing at all the jokes.. until the moment she walks off that bus where shes surrounded by the walls of her home a place where it doesnt feel like h. o. m. e. anymore

YoU ThInK yoU knOw mY fEeLiNgS mY sTRugGLeS, My FeArZ BuT iTs JuSt LiKe “DiArY” ..u ThiNk u KnOw bUt u HavE nO iDea..

Do u know what it's like to be me? Go through sumthing not everyone can see? Do you know what its like to walk in my shoes? Please stop judging me simply cuz I'm not you...

Underneath the makeup and hair... ...Theres a lil sign sayin... ......Handle With Care.......

*~*Im holding on to something that used to be there, hoping it will come back, but knowing it wont*~* i *play* it off like i got nothing to lie about nothing to *sigh* about but in my heart i know i've got something to *cry* about

Now im in over my head with something i said Completely misread i'm better off *dead*

Do you know what I want most? I want to be good at something. I want to be someone's hero and make someone smile. I want to make just one person's life better.

"Time doesnt heal wounds.. ..It just makes you realize how deep they truly are"

theres a girl in my mirror, i wonder who she is, sumtimes i think i kno her, sumtimes i really wish i did, but theres a sore in her eyez, lullibies and goodbyes, when shes looking bac at me, i can tell her heart is broken easily, if i cood i wood tell her not to be afraid, the pain that shes feeling, and the lonliness will fade .

-I JuSt DoNt LaUgH the WaY i UsEd To- -My TeArS ArE MaNy, My sMiLeS aRe FeW-

Sometimes I wonder if it's really worthwhile. If I should keep going. . . Faking this smile

cHaNgE iS HaRd YoU FiGhT 2 HoLd oN yEt YoU FiGhT 2 LeT Go

All wounds heal, but the scars they leave behind are FoReVeR *

All this shyt thrown at me.. has made a little crack each time.. what I’m afraid of is shattering..

*It hurts more to smile in front of everyone than it does to cry alone*

*People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is gonna take away all the hurt and all the pain....well I've tried that. I've tried hiding my sorrows, and covering the saddness in my smile... and what I've learned is when it hurts this much inside, your heart always has a way of showing it, no matter how many masks you wear.*

[[b e h i n d]] this innocent smile of mine, lay [[w o r d s]] that go unsaid. words of [[l o n g i n g]], love, anger, and hate, all repeating [[i n s i d e]] my head

no matter what i do it's never good enough i give all that is ME still it's never enough

º°¤ PeOpLe ArE lIkE sTaInEd GlAsS wInDoWs. ThEy SpArKlE aNd ShInE wHeN tHe SuN iS oUt BuT wHeN tHe DaRkNeSs SeTs In, ThEiR tRuE bEaUtY iS rEvEaLeD oNlY iF tHeRe Is A lIgHt FrOm WiThIn ¤°º

dOn`t yOu ever w0nder wh0 wOuld really give a fuck if yOu were g0ne?

*SoMeTiMeS i WiSh i CouLd PrEsS FaStFoRwArD 2 c iF aLL tHiS sHiT iS ReaLLy WoRtH iT*

"I know wat itz like to want to die, How it hurtz to smile, How u try to fit in but u cant, How u hurt urself on the outside to try to kill watz inside"

¤You know you've been -H u R t- one too many times.. when you open your eyes and all you see is -T e A r S-¤

*..When you f i n a l l y realize you didn't matter at all to s o m e o n e..* *..You b e q i n to wonder if you mattered to a n y o n e at all..*

i canT *f0rgive* y0u f0r Leaving unTiL i can *f0rgive* myseLf f0r LeTTing y0u *sLiP* away

don`t drive faster then yer quardian a n q e l can f l y

*i`m sittin in mii room.. thinkin bout wat y0u . s a i d . "we`re better off not frendz" ..i think im better off . d e a d . *

it hurts so much to love you as much as i do and then to look at you and realize how much you don*t even care!

MayBe There c0uLd Bee a seConD ChanCe For us To0 Bee To geTher cuz Time wuzn*T reaDy f0r us The F i r s T -- T i m e

you can always close your eyes to things you dont want to see, but you can never close your heart to things you don't want to feel..*

when i l0ok in the mirr0r i imagine a pretty gurl `& i think that can*t b me `til i 0pen my eyes 'nd see the real me the girl w i t h the large br0wn e y e s wh0 has makeup smeared 0n her face, fr0m wipin a w a y the t e a r s, a girl wh0s afraid 0f r e g r e t, a girl wh0*s c0nfused, wh0 can*t make up her mind,.. why m u s t i f i g h t m y insecurites, why can't i b happy?!

If i could only see you now, for about an hour maybe just a minute just to ask what she's got that i don' t have

the love you can`t have lasts the l o n g e s t feels the strongest a n d h u r t s t h e m o s t

W:i:t:h:o:u:t `love´ in my heart I might/as/well be dead

she wished she were pretty like you and thin with sweet complection... but yet,she`s stuck being her

Maybe I am, Hiding in my own confusion, Maybe we're just, A picture in my head, Maybe what if it could be, The way I wish it was, Maybe I don't wanna see it, The way it really is..<3

give me a b0x 0f pushpinz s0 everytime i cry i can pin my l0nley picture t0 the wall and fill my r0om with my pain and s0rr0wz untill 0ne day, when therez n0 r0om left, ill pin them t0 where the pain is really c0ming fr0m...my heart...

[[b e h i n d]] this innocent smile of mine, lay [[w o r d s]] that go unsaid. words of [[l o n g i n g]], love, anger, and hate, all repeating [[i n s i d e]] my head

the [s t r o n q e s t] person you see all day ...may be the one... who [c r i e s] themself to sleep at niqht

ItS rEaLlY wEiRd Ya KnOw I cAn sIt In A rOoM sUrRoUnDeD bY pEoPlE i LoVe aNd sTiLL bE [L] [o] [n] [e] [L] [y]

gOd SaW yOu WeRe GeTtInG tIrEd- AnD a CuRe WaS nOt MeAnT tO bE- sO hE pUt HiS aRmS aRoUnD yOu- AnD wHiSpErEd CoMe WiTh Me. WiTh TeArFuL eYeS wE wAtChEd YoU- aS wE sAw YoU pAsS aWaY- aLtHoUgH wE lOvEd YoU dEePlY- wE cOuLd NoT mAkE yOu StAy. YoU'Re GoLdEn HeArT sToPpEd BeAtInG- hArD wOrKiNg HaNdS aT rEsT- gOd BrOkE oUr HeArTs tO pRoVe To Us- He OnLy TaKeS tHe BeSt.*

WhEn u LoOk aT mE u SeE tHe GiRL WhO LiVeS iNsIdE hEr GoLdEn WoRLD BuT dOnT bELiEvE aLL tHaT u SeE CuZ uLL nEvA kNoW tHe ReAL mE

i UsEd tO bE nOrMaL YoUnG aNd HaPpY NoW iM LeFt a BrOkEn iMaGe oF tHe GuRL i UsEd tO bE

she smiles with all that she has left
yet tears are left undried
and though she's got so much to say
she bottles it up inside
if you look past her broken eyes
to a shadow no one sees
a disguise so you wont recognize
the girl is really me..

There are so many things I hide - and - SO many things I wish I could leave behind..

Sometimes things are only clear.. Once our vision is blurred with tears..

Even in laughter.. the heart can be in pain

opens her eyes look at her face shes got makeup all over the place a tear on her cheek falls to the floor she turns away walks to the door she screams n yells she continues to cry shes alive on the outside but the inside is gonna die she cant take this any more she takes a razor puts 2 her wrist she watches a fountain appear then all of a sudden her problems disappear

small red dots on my paper wash away the pain of hell they'll grow bigger every hour failing fleeting as i fell i was not the one to linger or the one to sit and stare maybe pain will solve my problems crying gets me nowhere ive been dreaming far too often of a time and place beyond where a family could keep from fighting where birds will still free to sing their song when the world is happy with this the eternal darkness i see when i know what the meaning of life is when america is really free

sEe this kNiFe? iM gUnNa dO It . iM ReAdY tO lEaVe ThIs WoRlD BeHiNd My PaIn 2 yOu Is bLiNd so DiG mE a GrAvE n ThRoW mY bOdY In iM dEaD.i EnDeD iT.i LeT the wOrLd WiN

i never thought life would be this hard everyone says it`ll get better, but i`m still waiting for that to happen,for this world to stop hating so i can wake up from this nightmare that never seems to end, With all the hatred and sorrow it just keeps going, Everyday is so dark and grey,theres nothing i can do, My whole world is crashing down on me and all my dreams are.. § h a t t e r e d

I want to be `*remembered*´ as the [girl]who could brighten up everyone`s day.. even if she couldn`t -»brighten upher own.. I want to be remembered as the one to put a .·´¯`»smile on your face even if no one could make her s m i l e.. I want to be remembered as the funny girl the one who would make everyone laugh even if n o t h i n g seemed funny to her

some days wouldnt be special if it wasnt for rain joy wouldnt feel so good if it wasnt for pain death gotta be easy cause life is hard itll leave you physically, mentally, n emotionally scarred

((*you watch her walk down the hall big smile, laughing, seems so happy youd never guess that she goes home and cries her self to sleep..everynight*))

ThE pAiiN // iiT jUsT wOnT gO aWaY No MaTtA hOw MuCh ii TrY // Or HoW mAnY dAySz ii WaiiT iiT iiSz DriiViiNg Me To ThE liiMiiT // WhiiCh ii CaN nOt TaKe ii NeEd Ta EnD mii LiiFe // WiiT eiiThEr A gUn RoPe Or BlAdE AfTa All // MaBy iiTsZ nOt ThE eNdLeSs PaiiN MaByE iiTsZ mii UsElEsS liiFe ii CaNt TaMe

yOu wOnder hOw it feels to walk a mile inside their shOes Of a girl like me . . . whO dOnt gOt a thing tOo lOose cOuld yOu step in my shOes and walk just a mile and after all the hurt still manage tO fucking smile

*nOt aLL sCaRs ShOw* *nOt aLL wOuNdS hEAL* * sOmEtIMeS yOu CaNt AlwAyS sEe* *tHe PaIn SoMeOnE fEeLs

its like im on this *emOtiOnal rOllercOaster* `nd i wanna qet off nOw

when a day like today, all has gone w r o n g and my life seems c r a z y gotta hold on smile on my face cuz i know the sun's gunna shine my way on a day like today look up in the s k y yea life's so a m a z i n g and i know i'll be o k a y

why am i fighting t0 live if i`m just living t0 fight why am i trying t0 see when there ain`t n0thing in sight why am i trying t0 give when n0 0ne gives me a try why am i dying t0 live if i`m just living t0 die

life d0esn`t hurt until y0u have time t0 y0urself t0 think ab0ut h0w things have changed wh0 y0u`ve l0st al0ng the way and just h0w much 0f it`s y0ur fault

y0u can`t see i`m hurting y0u d0n`t n0tice the pain it feels like every0ne else is sitting in the sunshine while i`m dr0wning in the rain

walking d0wn the winding r0ad rainy days are all i kn0w i have hit the gr0und.... staring up int0 the sky c0unting all the reasons why my mind is spinning ar0und..

smokin? nope thats not my style id rather make my life worth while im not gonna do it because you say its in cuz this fight is one that ur not gonna win

Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are

ItS sOo IrOnIc HoW bEsT fRiEnDs JuSt SlIp aNd ThEy BeCoMe EnEmIeS sOo DaNg QuIcK OnE wRoNg PhRaZe CoUlD cOsT 4 YeArZ mAkE tHe PeRfEcT fRiEnDsHiP gO dOwN iN TeArZ

iTz sO hArD tO KeEp SmILiNg wHeN nOtHiNg gOeS uR wAy..

WhIpE dEm TeArS pUt On A sMiLe HoLd On TiGhT tHiS mIgHt Be A wHiLe

What is life? I'm tired of life.

iM fEeLiN sIcK iM LoOkIn GrAy i DuNo WhAT iM sUpPoSeD tO sAy

Save me from myself

I keep my feelings inside No one knows what its like to be me

some days wouldnt be special if it wasnt for rain joy wouldnt feel so good if it wasnt for pain

what is being |[optimistic]|? it*s when you keep going when everyone`s against you and still stand up ad fight back even when you know that you might lose* through all those tough times you just gotta to keep ·going by just lookin through rose-colored eyes

| all*s g0iNg s0 wr0Ng· | | aNd y0u jUst want t0 | | giVe up, & dAydreAm | | ab0ut h0W y0u'd wiN | | when y0u didNt even | | try y0ur best but it`s | | d0wn t0 y0u have n0 | | ch0icE but fight back· |

I can't say "screw him" about the boy that I have come the closest to being fully in love with. I still would do anything for him, and it sucks, because I know he wouldn't do the same for me. This hurts more than anything, but I just can't stop loving him.

At least be there to wipe away my tears if you're going to make me cry. Sometimes there are no time outs, no next times, and no second chances.

I have nothing, because there is nothing I can say that would describe how I feel as perfectly as you deserve it.

One of these days you'll realize that I was the one for you and you screwed it all up.

Do you ever lie in bed at night and wish with all your heart, that the person you love will love you too, and when you realize the truth, do you just break down and cry?

I'd rather be physically hurt than emotionally, because you can put a band aid on your finger, but you can't put one on your heart.

The worst feeling in the world is loving someone when they don't love you back; your heart aches each time you see him, and no matter how deep you look into his eyes you'll never reach his heart.

You hug him good-bye like it's nothing, while all you want to do is hold on forever, but you let go, smile and walk away. Then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same, because try as you might you can't make someone love you, sometimes you have to let them be free, and letting go, that is when love hurts the most of all........

Sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you.

There’s A Girl In My Mirror Crying Tonight, And There’s Nothing I Can Tell Her To Make Her Feel Alright…

I want to tell you what I’m feeling, but I don‘t know where to start. I want to tell u yes i do but I’m scared you’ll break my heart.

Missing you isn’t the hard part. Knowing i once had you is what breaks my heart.

broken hearts always hurt ..tears always come.. but its the memories that k i l l y o u

Why do they say that time will heal this broken heart? They would know it isn’t true if they lost someone like you.

The day you walked out of my life is the day i watched my heart shatter on the floor.

So what do you do when somebody you’re so devoted to suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven’t got a clue of the pain that rejection is putting you through.

Everything in my life has faded away. My favorite blue jeans, well, they aren’t so blue anymore. My favorite lipstick isn’t that original color it was when I bought it and my teddy bear is worn and tattered. So what about these feelings for you? Why won’t they fade?

I guess i should have realized all the lies that you said and then it would have saved myself from all of the tears that i shed.

I could pretend that I’m not dying inside, but just so you know.. I am.

Sometimes the worst thing a guy can do to a girl is let her fall for him when he has no intention of catching her.

I thought you never wanted to see me hurt. Does that mean your eyes were closed while I was crying?

isn’t it funny how one person can change everything you feel in one day? isn’t it funny how they can change all of your ways? isn’t it funny how one minute your in love and the next.. you’re crying? that’s why i give up on even trying.

For a few moments you made me feel as though i actually meant something to someone...

You know how people say its like losing [h a l f] your heart? Well when you left you took the [w h o l e] thing with you.

A broken heart is when you actually refuse to get out of bed in the morning because you’re afraid of the reality that awaits you.

A broken heart is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you can’t fool your heart into believing that you will in fact be alright.

I’m just wondering if it hurts you to know that I can’t talk to you. What do I say to someone who has hurt me, confused me, and broken me beyond measures, but who I still love more than words can express?

Maybe its not suppose to end up happily ever after... but for once just once I want to live in that fairy tale world and feel what it feels like to be loved

"Sometimes I wish I could go back to the days when I was six, and my biggest problem was what kind of dress to put on Barbie or whether or not I had enough Lego’s to build a fort."

"The life that I was trying for is gone, and I am feeling so darn sorry for myself that it is hard to breathe." -

"Maybe I'm looking for all the wrong things in a guy.. maybe it's not even them.. maybe it's me.. but it seems like I get all the same guys...all the ones I want, but can't have.. all the ones I need, but can't get.. and all the ones I love.. just end up breaking my heart."

"If life was like a giant VCR, our lives would be a lot of video tape. And we could just fast forward past the really bad stuff, and rewind the really good stuff. Except, with my luck, I'd probably lose the remote … and get stuck at like, cheerleader day in the cafeteria

I feel like I've tried for so long to be happy, and the more I try, the more that goal slips from my reach. It's almost like quicksand where the more you struggle, the more submerged you become. I've given up on everything. Nothing matters to me anymore. Especially myself. The part of my life that matters least to me is myself. Because I'm no one and I always have been."

Do you think it is easy being me? Do you think it’s easy putting on the act that I do every day? I smile when all I want to do is cry … I laugh when all I want to do is die … I want to tell everyone how my world falls apart each night when I am laying in bed with tears in my eyes, want to let everyone know what it is like to be me, pretending to be happy … pretending to like myself. If it was up to me, I wouldn’t be pretending, I would actually be happy. Too bad it’s not …"

"I can't take it anymore. Everyone thinks I'm indestructible; the girl who never flinches; the girl who always has a smile on her face; the girl that's gone through so much yet doesn't have one scar -- and I'm tired of it! I don't want to live behind a wall of laughter and smiles anymore. I want people to understand me. I want people to understand how hard it is to be me and to have to deal with all this crap and still be expected to be happy. It's not fair. Why is it that everyone else can just fall apart but I have to be the one to keep it together?"

"You never see my tears, but that doesn't mean I don't cry. You never feel my pain, but that doesn't mean I don't hurt. You only see me smile, and that doesn't mean that I am happy."

Some people wear their smiles like a disguise. Those people who smile a lot, watch their eyes. I know cause I'm like that a lot. You think everything's okay, and it is till it's not."

"I feel like I've tried for so long to be happy, and the more I try, the more that goal slips from my reach. It's almost like quicksand where the more you struggle, the more submerged you become. I've given up on everything. Nothing matters to me anymore. Especially myself. The part of my life that matters least to me is myself. Because I'm no one… and I always have been."

"Is that who I am? Sort of a mother, but not really. Maybe a wife, but not quite. I mean, is that me? 'Cause I don't know. Y'know, maybe I'm running away from that, maybe I'm afraid to feel happy in that role because I'm nineteen and I feel like I should want more for myself."

"It's okay. I mean, no, obviously it's not okay, but it's how it is. We've had the chance to say that about a lot of things for a long time now, haven't we? It's not okay, it's just how it is."

"How is it possible that I could be... I could be the happiest that I've ever been in my entire life... you know, and now the saddest all at... all at one time

"It's too much. I'm numb and I'm tired. Too much has happened today. I feel as if I'd been out in a pounding rain for 48 hours without an umbrella or a coat. I'm soaked to the skin in emotion." -

It was just one of those days when you can walk around fooling everyone into thinking you're happy and look back and notice that every time you smile or laugh there is a little pang of hurt in your heart because you know you are lying to the people who mean the most to you."

"I don't know what's wrong with my world lately. One day, I'm surrounded by people who I can count on, and the next, they all abandon me as if they never gave a damn in the first place."

Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? you don’t want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. people have stopped being comforting.. and being alone never was. at least when you're alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who wont take 'I don't know' for an answer. you feel the way you do just BECAUSE. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait."

I have yet to figure how to be really completely happy. 'Cause I am not. I guess in time I will be happy, but right now it’s real hard for me to deal with what I have to try to deal with... "

"Every day seems the same to me; I sit around and think about how alone I feel, then I wind up rather enjoying loneliness because it's the comfort of being sad. Sometimes it feels so right and sometimes I'd like to be around no one for ten straight years but I know this feeling can't bring me places. And I know I'm losing lots of ground but to keep up means to get up. And why does it have to be the world keeps on changing while I just stay the same?"-

"When it hurts so much what can I do? when everything is wrong what should I do? and when everyone is fake what should I think? the only thing that is always there for me is sorrow..." -

"Saturated in pain, swallowed into tears, steered into confusion, lost in love, we find ourselves here everyday, everyday we find a little more of ourselves that we need to understand... "

"I fear that I am ordinary, just like everyone. To lie here and die among the sorrows, adrift among the days. For everything I have ever said and everything I have ever done is gone and dead." -

"Hello. My first name is distance and I really don't care if I never wake up again." -

Do you think it hurts much to die? It's hurting so much more to stay alive now." -

This is my 'depressed stance'; when you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand. The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better. If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this

No one thinks that I cry myself to sleep every night. No one knows that I'm not that strong. But maybe it's time for someone to find out that the person they know is not the real me."

I like the stars, it's the illusion of permanence, I think...well I mean they're always flaring up and caving in and going out. But from here I can pretend...I can pretend that lives last longer than moments. Gods come and gods go. Mortals flicker and flash and fade. Worlds don't last; stars and galaxies are transient, fleeting things that twinkle like fireflies and vanish into cold and dust. But I can pretend."

All my life, I have felt like there was some part of me missing and I felt that everyone could tell, like there was some hole in me, and everyone could see through it, like I wasn't finished or something

"I pretend to be happy so I don't have to explain myself to people who'll never understand

"Do you ever have those times that you cry, but you don't have any clue as to why, I can't be the ONLY one can I?"

"I told myself I wouldn't cry, I told myself another lie

was taught a month ago to bide my time and take it slow, but then I learned just yesterday to rush and never waste the day. Now I'm convinced the whole day long that all I learn is always wrong and things are true that I forget but no one's taught that to me yet."

"Inside my heart is breaking, my make-up may be flaking, but my smile still stays on

Have you ever seen a robin weep when leaves have turned to brown? Like me he's lost his will to live. I'm so lonesome I could cry. The silence of a falling star lights up a purple haze. And as I wonder where you are, I'm so lonesome I could cry

caught in a world that's plagued by something they called love. a paradigm of illness is the beast I have become. the sights that I have seen could nearly bring me to my knees. I’ve seen exactly what it is I never want to be, but I keep it deep inside myself

too much to find, so much so little time. so many images persist to shade my mind. will I ever come around or will I just hit the ground? will I still be standing when it all comes down? why can't I seem to sort it out? why am I always filled with doubt?"

if you've ever been depressed, then maybe you know where I'm coming from. It’s like one minute you’re fine, and the next minute something happens that makes you think -- i mean really think -- and then you’re totally empty. the only thoughts that are in your head are negative and it makes you feel totally alone, like you don't mean anything to anyone. all you want to do is tell someone how you feel, but you don't want their pity, and even if you could tell someone, nothing would come out right. you don't want to laugh or smile, or whine, or argue, or even be stubborn or difficult, you just want to go to bed and cry and hope this feeling passes, and sometimes it does, but it always seems to come back. you think that all your friends hate you and only talk to you because they feel bad for you. you know complete strangers judge you just because of how you look and how you act, and when you think about how you’re not as beautiful as the crowd that surrounds you, it makes you feel even worse. and of the two people that are supposed to love you the most in the world, one left you, and the other has to scream at you sometimes because they get angry and upset too. you feel like you will probably search your whole life for that one person that you can totally trust that you can love forever, who will never ever hurt you, but you know somewhere deep down that you'll probably never find him. he probably doesn’t even exist, so you just give up, you want so desperately to be alone, but at the same time you fear it so much. you know how it feels to know that you’re a bad person, to let your friends down and always be selfish, isolated, self conscious, bitter, whiny, and obsessive. you listen to what everyone else has to say, but you never tell them how YOU feel, because that would mean revealing part of yourself, and you just can't do that; you can't let anyone really know you. and your opinion wouldn't matter to them anyway, and most of all if you took the time to sit down and try to get all your feelings out for the first time in your life, it would be completely overwhelming and if anyone ever listened to all of that, they would have to agree with you 100 percent."

"my friends are getting mad.. i haven't been going out as much.. my tan and my hunger have begun to fade.... i guess I’m thinking that if i stay in my house long enough... Over time i will begin to fade too... hopefully in time i will disappear…" - beckie

"I’m sick of being dragged through the day.. i remember a time in my life when i used to wish the day would last forever... now all i want it to do is end.. each day i hate myself a little more.. i remember when i was my friend.…" - beckie

"Today I realized I have surpassed depression. I'm not even sad anymore. The way I'm feeling is not even a way of feeling now.. it has become a way of life. I would give anything just to be able to cry, to know I was capable of having emotions again.. but instead I stand here.. numb.. like a dead girl walking." -beckie

"you know that girl who is always lost. the one with the pretty smile no one can tell is fake? that girl who seems to be so strong, but daily continues to break? you know... that girl who is always there, and seems to have no problems of her own? the one who holds back the tears, until you are off the phone? that girl that is in love, with a guy who tries to understand. that girl who if you reach out, always pulls back her hand? well what a lonely life, what a sad girl she must be. maybe you didn't realize it, but that girl is me." - beckie

"this time i've done it. this is a new low, even for me. it's like i think i hit rock bottom, i finally think things have to get better, because they couldn't possibly get worse, and then i see that nothing is impossible." -beckie

"i feel like I’m stuck in a prison...a prison where the only guard keeping me in is myself.. and i'd let myself out... if only i remembered where i put the key." -beckie

"i smile because when i cry it doesn’t help. when i cry all it does is make people ask me if I’m okay, i would love nothing more than to punch these people. I’m sitting here, crying, but yes i am perfectly happy. i mean come on give me a break, obviously I’m not fine." -beckie

"i wish everyone didn't have such high expectations of me... because its bad enough i let myself down.. i don’t need to let everyone else down too.." -beckie

GrApHiCz-ljicon .

"i guess my smile isn't hiding my tears today, and everyone is asking me 'what happened'. they all want to know 'why i am having a bad day'. well nothing happened today... it was just a day.. an ordinary day.. preceded by 15 bad years." - beckie

"i used to have this self-confidence that no one could break, i used to be a fighter and always pushed things to the limits, but now, so much has changed and my life is just a blur i don't care about things i used to love or the things i used to hate, now I’m just nothing."

"I'm just a faded negative of the image I used to be."

"I know days like this will have an end, but just know that I'll be back again. This place is awful, but it's familiar." - Bane

"I feel like I've tried for so long to be happy, and the more I try, the more that goal slips from my reach. It's almost like quicksand where the more you struggle, the more submerged you become. I've given up on everything. Nothing matters to me anymore. Especially myself. The part of my life that matters least to me is myself. Because I'm no one… and I always have been." - Talia G.

"Oh, yeah, yeah. If your definition of 'ok' is having the strong desire to draw a warm bath and slit your wrists, then I am peachy." - Dawson's Creek

"a young girl cries in my ear, her heart tries not to break. she holds her own, but indecision makes her shake. she's got so much left to give, all her thoughts and all her dreams, reminding me how fast the time is passing by." - one true thing, 'change'

"Everything is finally working out for everyone, everyone is getting who they want and everything they want. I'm extremely happy for them because they all deserve it...but I can't help but to wonder why it can't happen to me." - Anna McKelvey

"I pretend my life is perfect like the face on tv, yeah, that's the only way to face another day, try to deny the misery." - millincollin

"it’s so nice sitting very still, in a room where no one else can feel, the pain that breaks my heart, each day, i'm not ok." - senses fail

"i'm fucking tired of pretending everything is okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away."

"i'm sick of smiling, and so is my jaw. can't you see my front is crumbling down? i'm sick of being someone i'm not, please get me out of this slump. i'm sick of clapping when i know i can do it better for myself. i'm sick of waiting, sick of all these words that'll never matter."

It sucks when you've been a disease all your life, when every time you try, every time you reach for something you want it's taken away. It sucks when you can't see the truth right in front of you. I used to think I had myself all figured out, but now I feel like I have to get to know me all over again, and go through all these obstacles to learn everything I used to know... ever feel like that? Gut feelings aren't always gut feelings, and the light at the end of the tunnel may be yet another train about to run over you. Breaking promises that you've made to yourself is like suicide and I'm sick of slitting my wrists every fucking night. I am sorry that I am a lazy fuck, I am sorry I never do anything right, I am sorry I'll never live up to your high expectations. I am just trying to make it through today. leave me alone." - Juley

"just need some time to myself again, need to bring back the old days when i was in control of my life

"I used to think that I was a good girl; I used to think that the world was fair. Things have gone just a little bit crazy, don't think I belong anywhere."

"I'm cradling the hardest, heaviest part of me in my hand. The ship is pitching and heaving, my limbs are bobbing and weaving, and I think this is what I understand. I just need a little vaccination for my far-away vacation. I'm going to go ahead boldly because a little bird told me, that jumping is easy, that falling is fun, up until you hit the sidewalk, shivering, stunned." -

"Do you ever have that dream, when you open your mouth and you try to scream, but you can't make a sound? That's everyday starting now."

"I'm losing my love of adventure, I'm losing all respect for me and myself tonight. I wonder what happens if I get to the end of this tunnel and there isn't a light."

"I'm getting pretty good at looking at the bright side while the flames ripple on the sand and swallow me whole, but this melancholy that I carry makes me feel so grown up at my kitchen table doing shots of resignation. I never thought I'd see the day when I would say, I give up and break the stallions of my wildest expectations."

So I hope you all will see, there just isn't a place here for me. I look around and feel like somebody must be fucking with me. I just can't take any of you seriously, and I can't keep keeping myself company."

when i cry, when i am sad i think of every awful thing i ever did. when i cry, there is no love. no there is nothing that can comfort me enough

That's right. I'm done trying to turn my life into some exciting movie, because you know what? I only end up getting disappointed

I'm just not all there. I mean, I can -- I can analyze somebody else until the cows wander home, but as soon as I turn all that indulgent perception on myself, it's like I completely lose connection between my heart and my head. It's like the two are incompatible, and I -- I can't get it together. And I really wish I could, because I'm so scared of what might happen if I don't. I... Does this make any sense to you at all?"

"Today. Today was a day. The world got smaller, darker. I grew more afraid. Not of what I am but of what... I could be. I loosen my collar to take a breath. My eyes fade. And I see... Him. The image of perfection. His frame strong. His lips smooth. And I keep thinking. What am I so scared of... I wish I could escape the pain, but these thoughts invade my head. Bound to my memory, they're like shackles of guilt. Oh God, please set me free

"Everybody and everything I come in contact with, I seem to screw up. Whatever’s the opposite of the Midas Touch, that's what I've got."

"It's like, there's this person that you want to be for other people. To make them happy. To make them proud of you. And then there's yourself. And sometimes it's hard to tell where one ends and the other begins. Does that make any sense?

I've been down for so long, it can't be that much longer still. I've been down for so long, that the end must be drawing near." -

"Maybe my heart's too weak. There's just this feeling, thought I had to get going... got too scary, got too big, got to get out of here. But now I don't know how to get home

"I would kill myself, but I'd probably go to hell, and that would just be redundant."

"You know how there are boxes at the post office? And how they all get sent out to people? And how there's one box that goes from place to place and never gets opened? That's me."

"Now I'm thinking bout the good times, all the friends I used to know, and they always said they'd have my back, but now I'm flying solo."

i just don’t feel like i know myself very well right now, so how can i be sure about anything? most of the time i feel so awkward, you know, like i don’t belong in my own skin, i get so frustrated at everything, i could just scream and there’s no reason for it, i just hate myse

i don’t know what it is, i just cry sometimes, maybe i am just so oblivious to the things going on around me, that i don’t realize that i am hurting as much as i am, so when the tears stream down my face, and i don’t have anything to say, don’t ask me why i am crying, because i simply don’t know, just hold me, i just want to be held

I have been a witness to the perfect crime. I wipe the grin off of my face to hide the blame. It isn't worth the tears you cry to have a perfect alibi. Now I'm beaten at the hands of my own game

"'i sort of feel like someone's knocked the wind out of me, i guess,' i say. ‘like an i told-you-so kind of thing coming from my subconscious. if that makes sense. every time i think about it, you know i feel sick. i feel like I’m incapable of making a right choice.'"

"you don't need to know that i walk around all day fearing the things that make me happy, and that i have been doing that for my entire life." - girls' poker night by jill a davis "I often liked to imagine that somewhere out there existed a parallel universe where things had turned out okay."

and then i just start crying. i try to stop, but i can't. and it's so strange. because, in a way, i'm not crying about myself. and in a way i am."

At moments like this, when loneliness seemed like my only friend, the only place safe to hide from the world at large was under the sheets." - my legendary girlfriend by mike gayle "this time i refuse to wake up until my head, my heart, and my life have all returned to normal.

I'm always the last to know. My insides are copper and I'd kill to make them gold. Conversation got me here: another night alone in the city. So make my bed the grave and shovel

It just hurts so badly sometimes. Sometimes it feels like you’re being thrown into a train track, but the train only hits your heart. Continuously. Over and over again. Without failure. When you’re young you don’t really appreciate the fairy tales that are thrown into your face at such a young naïve age. So you sit there and watch them -- hoping that someday you can be a professional Cinderella. Getting older you realize that maybe you have to be looking for your one true love and maybe he doesn’t exist. Every teen thinks that they can get through their own personal heartbreak. The first guy: that one who throws fluttering butterflies into your stomach and makes you believe that he will be there forever. You don’t know that soon he will go away and it will seem as if he left you. You’re not by yourself. . . Heart in hand. Crying to whoever will listen. A few months may go by. Maybe a year or two and then you meet someone else who does the same things to you. You try and go in with 'baby steps,' finally you give in; break down your wall; and start to think you 'love' again. But what is love? Just a word that some hopeless romantics used to describe his feelings for someone? What about the other words that people throw into your world of lies? Fate, destiny, ambition, serendipity -- the words that mean the most to you are the ones that hurt the most. The words that you find yourself dwelling over three days after they are said; three days after you supposedly made up with that person. The three days that are always in a month. The first couple months of a relationship are always the best. Maybe they should just end there. Maybe everyone isn’t meant to be with just one person. Maybe three or four in a lifetime is more like it. What if you stay with your 'high school sweetheart' for the rest of your life? You don’t learn anything and you are remembered as the person who married their first true love. Does anyone really care? Maybe some people think that they can’t do any better and that scares them to death. That’s the way I’ve felt way too many times. Every time though I find someone new to date, it feels as if I have done better than the last time. I think that people are corrupted to love another person. That is what they learn and may make that their own personal mission in life: to find that special someone who loves you. You can make yourself love anyone. See past their bad qualities and look to their good; past their looks -- into their heart. You stare straight into their eyes and feel as if you are the only one that they will ever look at again. But do we really want to be touched by a hand that has touched so many? Doesn’t it make you wonder why they are alone also? Do they share the same bad qualities as you do? You can’t make someone change and mold into what you want him or her to be. You just have to know that if they are the right person for you, you can either love them or leave them. Love the person that they are deep down inside. Sometimes, though the pain of hanging on is stronger than the pain of letting go, if you’re like me, you like to think you can make someone stay with you. Sometimes you have lost so many people in your life that losing another is too hard to let happen… so you keep trying -- looking at other guys and dreaming about what your life would be like if you could be with them, just for a little while; what you could learn from them; that they’d pay some kind of attention to you and then drop you like you never meant anything to them; tell you that they never liked you, then where are you? You are stuck between a feeling of heartbreak and a feeling of some kind of relief. Heartbroken that you will never get to know what it would all be like and relieved that you will never have to change a thing."

i give myself three days to feel better or i swear i am driving off a fucking cliff because if i can't make myself feel better then how can i expect anyone else to give a shit."

The real me used to laugh all night lying in the grass just talking about love. But lately I've been jaded life got so complicated

You think that things are bad. How can it get worse? It seems as though somewhere I may have taken a wrong turn." -

Broken bruised forgotten sore; too fucked up to care anymore.

“I don't think I can handle this anymore. It's gotten to hard for even me. And there's no one there for me. No one there to help me though this. No one even sees. They can't even tell that I'm dying here. They don't even care. And I need someone now. I never needed anyone, but now I need someone. Yet, I'm alone. I'm more alone then I ever been. Because, there’s more people now. More people who supposedly love me but don't. More people who say they care but they never show they do. They can't lie like I can. They can't pretend. I fake relationships. I fake smiles and laughter and joy. They can't though. They can't do what I can do. They're weak ... weaker then me. But, God, how I wish I had just one person. I would give anything to have someone love me. Someone who will hold me and let me cry. I don't have that. I never really had. It's getting so hard to keep going. I wonder if there’s anyone who really does care. If there’s anyone who I can talk to when I need to. But, it's just impossible. No ones there for me. And now, after all these years of being alone ... I don't even really want them there.”

“I don't know when it happened, or even how it happened. But it did. I grew up. And with growing up I grew apart. I'm not one of you anymore. I'm my own person. And I'm alone. You live in this happy world together, and I'm on the outside looking in. My seasons are completely different from yours. When the sun shines on you the rain pours on me. Your laughter is my sorrow. I don't feel things the way you do. I don't respond to things the way you do. I'm sorry. I can't help it. This is who I am

Things aren't great. The nightmares of my past are returning to haunt me in my sleep. When I'm awake, a certain sound, a word, brings back the memories and I freeze. I can't breathe. My soul is so torn. I wonder if it will ever be healed completely. My heart is ripped into shreds. It doesn't seem as if there’s anyway to mend it. I'm dying. I'm dying and no one can tell. They don't even care. It's torture, going through the motions of life as if I'm really here. I don't remember the last time I really felt anything. The last time I cried or laughed and meant it. And I wonder why no one can tell. They all say the love me but then why aren't they able.”

When you attempt sucide ... and you fail ... it's like this big dissapointment ... because it's one more thing you can't do right.“ -
“So, here's my question. What makes me so damn wonderful? I'm nothing. Honestly. I'm just another girl, doing what she can to make believe happiness. And, it's not working. But, somehow I managed to convince everyone around me that I am. And they say they love me. But, how can they? What they see isn't me. It's what I pretend to be, because its what I'm told to be. But, I'm not happy. I'm not nice. I'm mean. I'm evil. I say things and do things that hurt myself and hurt people. Deliberately. Because, I can. And because it's supposed to make them all leave me alone so I don't have to pretend anymore, but they don't leave. No, instead they continue to believe I'm happy, perky. When I smile they believe me. When I laugh they think it's real. And they think they love me. But, they don't know me. They know who I pretend to be. But, how do you love something that's not real?”

It was like falling into a hole and it keeps getting bigger and bigger, you can't get out. And then all of the sudden it's inside you, it is you, and you're trapped, and it's all over

“After awhile you get sick of caring and you are too hurt to fight. Sometimes no matter what you do, things won't be alright.”
I'm afraid that I don't have any more fight left inside of me, I clawed and scraped to save it, but the battle was just too big for me to handle.”

"Theres something familiar about despair; its like a soft, old blanket. I know depression; i feel welcome there. To believe that my life may be full of joy, laughter and understanding fills me with so much fear of disappointment that i would prefer to smoke a cigarette and not believe at all. I either want everything to be magic or mythic or i want to be dead

don't know how much longer I can handle this life that I'm living. I'm so tired of everything and I'm not sure how much longer I can be the person that I am. I'm almost out of tears, I've cried so much.”

“everything comes tumbling down i choke back each tear that bleeds

“It wasn't a suicide attempt; it was an escape from everything awful. When we cut, we control our own pain, and we can make it stop whenever we want. Physical pain relieves mental anguish. For that brief moment, the pain of cutting is the only thing in the cutter’s mind. And when the others come back, they're weaker. Drugs do that too, and sex, but not like cutting; nothing is like cutting.”

“Smile away the fear of knowing the truth. Paint on a new face and lie your way through life. I can see you -- the untainted you --beautiful in a terrible way; A smile so dangerous it could break my heart.”

“You assume that I'm fine, but you don't know how to read between the lines. I swing from moody and callous to giddy and humorous in naught point-one second. That's not because I'm easy going or feeling guilty for being off-hand with you. It's lack of confidence and self esteem. It’s trying to fit in and trying to hide the scars at the same time. Maybe I'm doing a good job; and that's why you don't see.”

“The worst part is that they don't notice. It's not that they hate you. no. If they did it would be so much easier. If they did you could just hate them right back. Only they don't. They don't hate you. They just don't notice you. You're just not there to them.”

“We all need something we consider worth getting up in the morning for. Whether it's real or not; healthy or destructive; tangible or false is irrelevant. since when you’ve got nothing to hang onto, deception can seem pretty inviting.”

“Suicide sometimes proceeds from cowardice. But not all the time; for cowardice sometimes prevents it; since as many people live because they are afraid to die as die because they were afraid to live.”

“when i wake up in the morning, is it gonna be another ugly day

Hands on the mirror, it can’t get much clearer. Can’t make this all go away. Now that you’re bleeding, you stare at the ceiling and watch as it all fades away.

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2. Have you ever laid in bed hoping that you’ll wake up in the emergency room hearing the words “She isn’t gonna make it.”

A melancholy beauty she has her charms. I love a pretty sadness in a face that varies now and then like changeable colors into a smile.

3. A smile is worth a thousand words but can’t we say the same about a frown?

4. A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone’s face.

5. After awhile you just can’t cry anymore. You just have to believe that what happens is what’s supposed to happen and you can’t change that even if you tried so just dry the tears and hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

6. Alone in this world. I’m completely lost. I have given up on everything.

7. And if they only knew they’d be so surprised. I’m just a good pretender in a great disguise.

8. And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.

9. And what did you expect? A perfect child raised by TV sets, abandoned every mile? We never get respect, never a fair trial. No one gives a shit as long as we smile.

10. And you can’t fight the tears that aren’t coming or the moment of truth in your lies when everything feels like the movies. You bleed just to know you’re alive.

11. Behind my smile is something you’ll never understand.

12. Behind these big blue eyes of mine lay tears that go uncried. Tears of regret, sadness, sorrow, and pain and these feelings I can’t deny.

13. Being a teenager shouldn’t hurt this much.

14. But what I see is that everyone keeps changing, evolving, except for me. I lack courage.

15. Could you step into my shoes, walk a mile, and with all this hurt still manage to smile?

16. Daddy’s little girl, Mommy’s little angel, Teacher’s pet, Pageant queen. All my life I’ve been pleasing everyone but me.

17. Don’t be fooled by her pretty smile. Inside she’s breaking. She’s so fragile.

18. Even if I get past all my problems, I'm just going to go out and get new ones. I like being a mess; it's who I am.

19. Even in laughter, the heart can be in pain.

20. Even though I’m not happy I fake it. I’m sick of this pain but I take it.

21. Everybody is at war with different things. I’m at war with my own heart sometimes.

22. Everyone leaves me stranded, forgotten, abandoned, left behind. I can’t stay here another night. Everything is fine, couldn’t hurt more.

23. Everything falls apart. Even the people who never frown eventually break down.

24. Family, friends, love. You can never have all three. You can only make one happy and the others will either disappear or stay attached. My pure luck.

25. For once I wish I could look in the mirror and be proud of what I see, proud of what I turned out to be. Proud to be me.

26. For once instead of telling me reasons why I shouldn’t cry, actually pay attention to the reasons why I am.

27. Force a smile. Blink away the tears. I’m supposed to be strong, supposed to have no fears but I’m finding it so hard not to frown. I’m such a strong person. Why am I breaking down?

28. Fuck true confessions. No one gives two shits about me anymore.

29. God only gives us stuff he knows we can handle. I just wish he didn’t trust me this much.

30. Have you ever buried your face in your hands because no one around you understands or has the slightest idea what it is that makes you you?

31. Good girl reputation for all your life and no one notices. One screw up and it feels like the world is watching.

32. Have you ever cried for no reason at all and when you try to get up something else makes you fall?

33. Have you ever had that empty feeling inside like no one cares or loves you back, feeling as if you were to cry and no one would be there to wipe away your tears?

34. Her feelings she hides. Her dreams she can’t find. She’s losing her mind. She’s falling behind. She can’t find her place. She’s losing her fate. She’s falling from grace. She’s all over the place.

35. How can you be alone when so many people care about you? It’s easy when you don’t care about them.

36. I always walk holding my head down when people come around. I always pretend to smile but I know deep in my heart that I’m slowly falling apart.

37. I am every emotion times ten. I conform yet I'm rebellious, always obeying but somehow still an outlaw, always talking but never heard- I am a teenager.

38. I bit my tongue and stood in line with not much to believe in. I bought into what I was sold and ended up with nothing.

39. I can take a lot of pain. I’ll enjoy my days of sunshine but I won’t cry about my nights in the rain. I can’t stop crying. I don’t understand and it’s not the loud, screaming crying. It’s just the tears continuously roll down my face and I can’t do anything to stop them.

40. I could go on with my day and act like everything is okay but as my life goes on it hurts more in every way.

1. I could pretend I’m not dying inside but just so you know I am.

2. I couldn’t say how I felt so I cried.

3. I don’t know if I’m getting better or just used to the pain.

4. I feel like a refrigerator has fallen on me and I’m pinned underneath it hoping to escape but in the meantime my life is sprinting ahead of me assuming I’ll catch up.

5. I grew up wishing on a star and look where it’s gotten me. Now my head is full with fake fantasies.

6. I hate when people ask me if I’m okay because it just reminds me that I’m not.

7. I have a head full of ideas about improving one’s life that unfortunately I lack the fearlessness to implement.

8. I have this great imaginary world but sometimes I just need things to happen for real.

9. I just want things to go back to the way they were when my life made sense but that’s never gonna happen and it’s all my fault.

10. I keep silent even when I’m screaming inside because the things that drive me crazy. I have no choice but to hide.

11. I like it when I’m alone because then I don’t have to pretend like everything is okay.

12. I love sleep. My life has this tendency to fall apart when I'm awake.

13. I love the rain because it hides my tears so well.

14. I may not go down in history. I just want someone to remember me. I’ll probably never hold a brush that paints a masterpiece. I’ll probably never find a pen that writes a symphony but if I will love then I will find that I have touched another life and that’s something.

15. I only cry when my tears can’t be seen like in the dark or in the rain just so you can never see my pain.

16. I realize that I’m trapped in the sorrow and the strife. I realize that I can’t escape.

17. I smile and act like nothing is wrong. It’s called putting shit aside and being strong.

18. I start to worry when things are going so great because I know eventually something is gonna come and fuck up my perfect world.

19. I tell myself it’s okay. I say I have no regrets but there’s something you should know. I forgive. I don’t forget.

20. I think I would do better on my own. No friends. No fights. Just me. Alone.

21. I tried to hold back my tears. I tried my hardest to be tough. It’s just too hard and now I just have to give up.

22. I used to be normal, young and happy but now all I have is a broken image of the girl I used to be.

23. I wake up and think dreams are real. I sleep so I don't have to feel.

24. I wake up in the morning, put on my face, the one that’s going to get me through another day. Doesn’t really matter how I feel inside. This life is like a game sometimes.

25. I wanna be perfect but I’m me. I wanna be flawless but you see every chip, every crack, every dance, and every little mistake. I wanna be perfect just like you but there’s only so much that a girl can do. When I look in the mirror it makes sense to me perfectly.

26. I wish I had a reason to wake up the next morning, a goal, a dream, a wish, anything to keep me going because lately I’ve been having trouble remembering why I’m even here.

27. I’m always telling people “don’t worry. You’ll be fine.” Maybe I should take my own advice some time.

28. I’m at a stage in my life where I’m having a hard time caring about things. Fortunately I don’t care. I’m having one of those moments when everything is so perfect and you get kinda sad because you know nothing in your life will be better than this.

29. I’m not that complicated. I’m just misunderstood.

30. I’m sorry that I’m not beautiful or perfect so deal with it. I do.

31. I’m staring at my reflection. I look pathetic tonight.

32. I’m stuck in this hole six feet deep. I have no shovel to dig myself out. I scream for help but no one hears me. I pray for help but no one answers me.

33. I’m such a liar when I smile.

34. I’m tired of happy ever after endings. I’m tired of make believe heroes. I’m tired of taking back what I have given. I’m tired of waking up here.

35. I’ve always avoided fights. I make jokes instead. I tell people what they wanna hear in order to avoid confrontation. I pretend to want things I don’t want and I pretend not to want things I do want. No one gets hurt except me. The lines are so crossed and blurred at this point that I don’t know what I want. I just know I want it to be easy.

36. I’ve come to the point where I’m not gonna get upset and I’m not even gonna care only because very time I did it never got me anywhere.

37. I’ve tried different ways but it’s all the same. By the end of the day I have myself to blame.

38. If she knows what she wants she has a better chance of getting it, a better shot at happiness.

39. If you know how to pretend you’re pretty, people believe you even if you don’t feel like it.

40. It makes me sad and then it makes me laugh cuz sadness at any length is terrifying.

. It seems every time I find myself I end up losing everyone else.

2. It sucks to be alone even when there are people all around you.

3. It’s been a hard week, chasing down these miles, trying desperately to find a reason to smile.

4. It’s hard to answer the question “What’s wrong?” when nothing’s right.

5. It’s hard to grow up in a society where you will never be the pretty girl. Everyone always seems to have everything you don’t and your dreams are always one cloud away from where you are.

6. It’s just I might get distracted and I get lost kind of easily and sometimes I have really bad days when I Just want to hide or scream or bleed or something and all that..

7. It’s not very pleasant in my corner of the world at three in the morning but for people who like cold, wet, ugly bits, it’s something rather special.

8. Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams. Let it wash away my sanity cuz I wanna feel the thunder. I wanna scream. Let the rain fall down.

9. Living dead girl.

10. Look a little closer behind my smile and you’ll see a frown. Look a little closer on my cheeks and you’ll see tracks of tears.

11. Look for the girl with the broken smile.

12. Maybe tomorrow everything will be better but I know deep down that things will never change.

13. My hopes and dreams are gone and they faded away like an old love song.

14. My pain you’ll never know. My feelings I’ll never show. The past remains nameless and yet you think you fuckin know.

15. My smile might be fake but my tears are real.

16. Never underestimate the pain of a person because the truth is everyone is struggling. It’s just some people hide it better than others.

17. Next time I say I’m fine but seem anti-social just remember this. I’m fucked up, insecure, neurotic, and emotional.

18. Okay, I’ve had it with real life. Give me my fairy godmother, my prince, and my happily ever after endings.

19. Pain doesn't hurt when it's all you've ever felt

20. Pain never really goes away. It’s just eventually people learn to live with it.

21. People are always telling me to smile as if smiling is gonna take away all the hurt and all the pain. Well, I’ve tried that. I’ve tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in my smile and what I’ve learned is when it hurts this much inside, your heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks you wear.

22. People say I’m the life of the party because I tell a joke or two. Although I might be laughing loud and hard, deep inside I’m blue so take a good look at my face. You will see my smile looks out all over the place. If you look closer, it will easily trace the tracks over my tears.

23. People that laugh a lot cry a lot because it only takes one smile to hide a million tears. I laugh a lot.

24. People think I’m all smiles. People haven’t lived in my lifestyle.

25. People tell me they know what I’m going through. I just smile and think “if you only knew...”

26. Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face but those that fall from the heart and cover the soul.

27. Scrunched up tight, trying not to show my band of resistance, wanting to let go, bottled all up, wanting to break free, pleasing everyone though I just wanna be me.

28. Searching for nothing, wondering if I’ll change. I’m trying everything but everything still stays the same.

29. Shattered thoughts, shattered dreams, shattered truth, shattered everything.

30. She began to cry, just crying. The deep and ugly kind, the kind you lose yourself in, thanking God no one has to see how rubbed and blotched your face becomes though some detached part of you also wishes there were someone to see you now, to see and understand how sad you are at heart. They don’t see it and of course you would never show them.

31. She strikes a pose but she dies inside. Nobody knows she’s a beautiful suicide.

32. She wants to go home but nobody is home. It’s where she lies broken inside with no place to go. She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was ad and that’s important, you know. She’s just a typical teenager; angry, insecure, confused. I wish I could tell her that it’s all going to pass but I don’t want to lie to her.

33. She wants to go home but nobody is home. That’s where she lies, broken inside, no place to go to dry her eyes. Her feelings she hides. Her dreams she can’t find. She’s losing her mind. She’s falling behind. She can’t find her place. She’s losing her faith. She’s falling from grace. She’s all over the place. She’s lost inside.

34. She’s a beautiful girl but tears fill her eyes. She’s an unhappy girl who just nonstop cries. 35. Sick of this bullshit trying to make me pissed. When people start to fuck things up I have to live with it.

36. Silence is the most powerful cry.

37. Smile. It’s easier than explaining why you’re sad.

38. Some days I sit staring out the window watching the world pass me by. Sometimes I think there’s nothing to live for anymore and I almost break down and cry. Don’t use excuses. Don’t ask why. It’s just a break down. It happens all the time so get out of my face. Don’t even try. You wanna help me? Just let me cry.

39. Some people don’t realize. They’re too caught up in their own crap. They take it all out on you not even knowing that you’re hurting too.

40. Someday I’m gonna leave it all behind and start a brand new page to my life because this page is full of screw ups as if most of my life was a mistake. Maybe I was the mistake.

1. Sometimes all you can do is smile and move on with the day, hold back the tears, and pretend you’re okay.

2. Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth. It seems I do more harm than good & I don't know if it's worth me loosing sleep over this

3. Sometimes I feel like no one cares. Sometimes I feel like no one is there. Sometimes I want to kill myself. Sometimes I think I need some help. Sometimes I feel like I’m alone. Sometimes I’m in an empty zone. Sometimes I feel like I’m not alive. Sometimes I wonder if I’m deprived. Sometimes I think the world should end. Sometimes I think I have no friends. Sometimes I want to make them see. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t me.

4. Sometimes I just sit, stare, and wonder what the fuck I’m doing wrong.

5. Sometimes I lie awake and think, “Why can’t life be fair?” I cry myself to sleep at night and wake up to a nightmare.

6. Sometimes I wish I could just walk out the door and not have to worry anymore because all the things that I’ve been through, I can’t deal with it like I used to and when I’m straight up feeling like shit I gotta suck it up and deal with it.

7. Sometimes I wonder who would miss me if I were gone.

8. Sometimes it’s easier to pretend things are okay rather than face a difficult truth so we go through the motions, the rituals of everyday life. We hope the comfortable rhythms of familiarity will hold off the inevitable just a little longer, return things to normal, anything to buy us more time.

9. Sometimes the pain is too much to bear. Sometimes it rains too much to care. Sometimes if you don’t want your back it will cost you. Sometimes you wonder who would give a fuck if they lost you.

10. Sometimes things are only clear once our vision is blurred with tears.

11. Sometimes you have to wonder who would really care if they lost you.

12. Sometimes you just have to hold your head up high and blink away the tears.

13. Strange how laughter looks like crying with no sound and how raindrops look like tears without pain.

14. Tears are like kisses. The real ones you can’t hold back.

15. Tears are the words your heart uses to explain when fake smiles can’t cover up the pain. 16. Tears in my eyes, just trying to keep my head up, everyone swears they care but really don’t give a fuck.

17. Tell me how would you feel? You would probably give up too if no one believed in you. 18. That’s the most frightening aspect of loneliness. You think you’re being damaged while loneliness is happening to you and the worry amplifies the pain.

19. The cracks in the concrete just remind me that no matter how strong you are you’ll just fall apart anyway.

20. The people in this world are never what they seem so I just stopped caring and now I’m living a fuckin day dream.

21. The strongest person you see all day may be the one who cries themselves to sleep at night.

22. The way I feel is not always how I seem.

23. The worst feeling in the world is being in a room full of people and feeling so alone.

24. There are two times I feel stress, night and day.

25. There is only one rain cloud in the sky and it's raining on me. Somehow I'm not surprised

26. There’s a good side to getting hurt a lot. After awhile it just doesn’t bother you as much.

27. Things will probably come out all right but sometimes it takes strong nerves just to watch.

28. This has gone on so long. I realize that I need something good to rely on, something for me. I’m young and I’m free but I get tired and I get weak. I get lost and I can’t sleep.

29. Trying to reach out but when I would try to speak out, felt like no one could hear me. Wanted to belong here but something felt so wrong here so I would pray I could breakaway.

30. Well I’m gonna get out of bed every morning; breathe in and out all day long. Then after awhile I won’t have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breathe in and out and then after awhile I won’t have to think about how great and perfect I once had it.

31. When I do right, no one ever remembers. When I do wrong no one ever forgets.

32. When I was a little girl I used to go to the window and look at the caterpillars. I envied them so much because no matter what they were before they would eventually turn into these beautiful creatures and fly away completely untouched.

33. Why is it that when one tear falls you can suddenly find reasons for every other one that rolls down your face?

34. You know those moments when you totally don’t wanna cry but you’re not quite sure what else to do?

35. You know you’ve been hurt too many times when you open your eyes and all you see is tears.

36. You say I’m always happy and that I’m good at what I do but what you’ll never realize is that I’m a damn good actress too.

37. You see her walking in the hallways, smiling and laughing but you’d never guess she went home every night and cried herself to sleep.

38. You smile when you feel like crying, you act like you're okay, when you're falling apart inside and you let it go. You move on, because there's nothing else you can do...

You say I'm always happy,
and that I'm good at what I do
but what you'll never realize is,
I'm a damn good actress too

Please d0nt judge me by my face by my religion 0r by my race please d0nt laugh at what i wear 0r h0w i l0ok 0r d0 my hair. please lo0k a little deeper way d0wn deep inside and although u many not see it..i have al0t 2 hide. behind tha cl0thes the secrets lie, behind my smile i s0ftly cry..please l0ok a little deeper and mayb u will see the lonely little girl that lives inside of me please listen 2 her carefuLLy 2 her..she'll sh0w u shes insecure please try 2 b a friend 2 her and sh0w her that u care please just get 2 kn0w her and mayb u will see..that if u just lo0k deep en0ugh ull find the reaL me

im a girl 0oh yes i am call me names i d0nt give a damn call me a bitch i wont take no more cuz ur the one whos a fuckin wh0re

No matter what happens we'll always remember the things that can never be forgotten the years we spent waiting to grow up the years we spent waiting to become young again dying to get to high school and dying to get out of it all in all it was worth all the time and all the memoirs that can never be erased from our hearts and from our thoughts the teachers we drove to insanity the many friends we made the funny dances, and football games the goofy outfits we wore to homecoming those people who didnt care what anyone else thought People who changed our lives forever

Growing up sucks...not all kisses are magic and most boys do not live up to your expectations. But there are those times when everything, I mean, love, romance, relationships, it all falls together perfectly and it's incredible. It's those moments, no matter how depressingly few and far between that make growing up worth it

YoU ThInK yoU knOw mY fEeLiNgS
mY sTRugGLeS, My FeArZ
BuT iTz JuS LyK DiArY
YoO hAVe NO iDeA

ThE SaMe oLd sHt tHaT bRiNgS Me DoWn, aNoThEr dAy iN tHiS GOSSiP tOwN, nOw i WaiT aLL CoNfuSeD, fEeLiNg LiKe i'Ve bEeN UsEd, tRyiNg tO FiNd a BeTtEr wAy, tO MaKe iT tHrO tHiS FcuKiN DaY

i play it Off lyk i qOt nOthin tO lie abOut nOthin tO siqh abOut buh in my heart i knO i qOt sOmethin tO cry about

keep ur head to tha sky
lift ur life and reach up high
wipe tha tears and don't u cry
ur gonna make it if u try

Everyday before school I try and look my best, but then I come to school and see all the rest, they are beautiful and popular, the exact opposite of me,but I hope that you can love me for what I can be

im just so scared..im afraid ur gonna realize how amazing u really are n then ur gonna look at me n say what am i doing with her? ur gonna realize wut all the other guys have over time and know that u can do so much better...

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a wave, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around

It's hard to answer the question -What's wrong?- when nothings rite

I hate to smile just to pretend I'm not hurt, I hate to giggle just to show you ill be OK, I hate to laugh after I cry, I still love you and you've said goodbye.

kEeP on LaUgHin + crYin da s0undEzT mindz.r da mozT insanE+ da HaPpiEzT hEarTz.HoLd da mozT pain

guess this is 0ne 0f th0se times where
i just g0tta fake a smile and-m0ve 0n-

Y0u asked me what was wr0ng
I smiled and said n0thing
Then the minute y0u turned ar0und
A tear streamed d0wn my face
and I silently whispered t0 myself
Everything Is...

You drink what you want
And smoke what you see
Acting like your real saying
Baby this is me
Quit trying to fit in
Cause your friends do it to
Don't hide behind your cloud of smoke
Cause it really isn't you
I can't believe how true this is
Even though you say your different
You fit the description perfectly

~:-We ShOwEd EaCh OtHeR HoW 2 SmiLe-:~
~:-EvEn WheN LiFe WaSn’T WoRtHWhiLe-:~

MaNy NiTeS i'Ve CrIeD fRoM tHe ThInGs U dO,
fElT lYkE i cOulD dIe FrOm ThE tHoUgHt Of LoSiNg YoU

Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? u dont wanna smile and u don't wanna fake being happy...But at the same time, u dunno exactly what is wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting...and being alone never was. at least when you're alone no one who'll constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who wont take 'i don't know' for an answer. u feel the way you do just BECAUSE. u hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait

Ya know i just realized today... I'm in love with you, yes, but I'm in love with the you that i used to know.. you've changed too much. All i can do is hope for the real you to come back... and then, maybe then being in love won't be so bad.

it's hard to say I'm sorry It's hard to make the things I did undone A lesson I've learned too well, for sure So don't hang up the phone now I'm trying to figure out just what to do I'm going crazy without you

iVe CoMe 2 thE pOiNT wHeRe iM nOt gOnNa CaRe...CuZ cRyinG nEvEr GeTs mE nE WhErE

you never know what you are really losin' until you're standing in a room with that person
not being able to call them yours

A little girl, on daddy’s lap
Hidin’ her disease with a baseball cap.
You can turn the channel, most people do.
But what if you were sitting in her daddy’s shoes?

Hold On..Never Let Em See You Shed A ..Tear
My Soul's Gone, On The Inside I've Been Dead
For Many Years All My Life Is For My friends
So Much Drama In The World, What's A Girl To Do?

Im gunna draw a picture,
a picture on my wrist,
Ill draw it with a razor,
Ill draw it on my wrist,
as i draw this picture,
a fountain will appear,
and suddenly all my problems will slowly disappear …

Fuk that bullshit
Need to relax
Get my head straight
Put my face on
Shove my hair up
My ass is in gear and now
Everything's alright

sometimes all you can do is walk away
hide your tears and fake being just okay
i love you more than wordz can show
i think bout u more den u could eva no
now until foreva dis will b tru
bkuz therez no one i could eva love
..as much as i love you

daddy's little girl
mommy's little anel
teachers pet
pagent queen
all my life i've been pleasin'
everyone but me.

forgiving someone isn't the hard part
it is forgetting what that someone did
that you will never forget

i KnO wUt iTz LiKe 2 WaNt 2 DiE
hOw iT HuRtZ 2SmiLe
hOw u TrY tO fIt iN bUt u CaN't
hOw u hUrT yOuRsElF On ThE OuTsiDe
2 kiLL tHe ThInG oN tHe InSiDe

*~Peoples these dayZ r soo pathetic
*~Tryin to fit in, i wasted most of my life
*~Now to my wrists i take this knife
*~I put on this fake smile to satisfy all of u
*~If thats not enuf, wut else can i do?
*~How much more crap can i take?
*~How much longer until i break?
*~Im too ashamed to pull the trigger
*~Too proud to push down the knife
*~God i wish sum1 would take my life!
*~Wuts the point of living when u constantly feel sad
*~This is the life i wish i never had...

i am a poet writing of my pain
i am a person living a life of shame
i am your daughter hiding my depression
i am your sister making a good impression
i am your friend acting like im fine
i am a wisher wishing this life wasnt mine
i am a girl who thinks of suicide
i am a teenager pushing tears aside
i am a student who doesnt have a clue
i am the girl sitting next to you

Hold onto my hand,please don't go away
I need you here to comfort me and tell me it's okay
Watch over me, please, and keep me near
Walk with me and prove to me there's nothing left to fear
Encourage me, please, and guide me as I blindly walk along
Give me faith and give me hope, please just keep me strong
Help me face the dark days please, help me face the light
Please just give me courage to get me through the night

"There's something about the look in ur eyes. Something I noticed when teh light was just right. It reminded me twice that I was alive and it reminded me that ur so worth the fight."

"Sometimes you just need to sit back, close your eyes, and think about all the craziness in your life. Most other times, however, you need to not worry about anything, get fucked up, and have a good time while you can. Everything falls into place eventually!!"

.::*mY liFe iS sliPpinG aWaY b-4 mY eYeS n* aLl i cAn d0 iS Sit aNd wAvE gOodbYe(L)*::.

* Ive said wut i needed to say *
* Ive done wut i needed to do *
* Now whatever happens to us.. *
* I guess ill leave it up to yew *

im tired of trying, im tired of lying, i know ive been smiling but inside im dying

thA onLiiE thiinq thAt kEepZz mE
fRUm kILlin mA sEllf every TimE i
sAy iTt isSz ii thiink aboUT hOw
hArd it be fOr thA peOple whOo
really doo loVe n Care AbOut mE

Forget what you've ((-heard-))
((-recognize-)) what you see
I know you've heard ((-rumors-))
((-forget-)) them
Here's the ((-real-)) me...

eVeRy ((NoW-n-ThEn))
yOu WaKe Up To A dAy
ThAt AfFeCtS yOuR _wHoLe LiFe_
tHe DaY iN yOuR lIfE
wHeN yOu KnO yOu'Ll
N e V e R bE [tHe SaMe] AgAiN
tHe DaY tHaT .::cHaNgEs::.
tHe WaY yOu ThInK aBoUt
ºEvErYtHiNgº AnD ºeVeRyOnEº

Being around you makes me feel like for once in my life I dont have to try to be happy...it just happens

Just give me a hug And wipe away my tears Smile at me And promise That everything will be ok Sit here and listen Tell me Im fine the way I am Cuz it always sounds best Coming from you Hug me and say That I dont deserve this B/c Im starting to believe That I do Please Just once b there to steady my shaking hand B there to laugh away all my problems B there to tell me That its all going to be ok Bc Im suddenly afraid That it wont

×Don't worry about me, or what I do. What happens in my life, has nothing to do with you. So keep your mouth shut, and stop talking shit. 'Cause I'm sick and tired of you bitches and all your fuckin' drama bullshit!×

Im ShY iM qUiEt
Im An AnGeL iN dIsGuIsE
iM lOuD iM nOiSy
Im A dEvIl InSiDe
U tHiNk Im An InOcCeNt GuRl
So LeTs MaKe A bEt
CuZ iF dAtS wUt U tHiNkInG
u DoNt KnO mE yEt!!

Don't judge me by the way I dress...Don't tell me to act my age...Don't tell to be like someone else...Don't tell me...I decide who I am, Just Being Me.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt.

If you hold back your feelings because you're afraid of being hurt, you'll end up hurting yourself anyway

How could u kno that behind my eyez a sad gurl criez ,how could u kno that it hurtz so much inside,so can you get me outta here,take me away,jump in the car,drive till the gas miles go so far ,I cant....u see....this place nemore!

A gUrL iZ MuCh MoRe ThAn ShE SeEmS
SheS NoT A ToY By AnY MeAnS
UnDeRNeAtH Da MaKeUp n HaiR
ThErEs A siGn DaT sAyS "HaNdLe wiT cArE"

Every girl wants one guy to meet all her needs, while every guy wants all the girls to meet his one need.

I act like I don’t care You act like you don’t care either When I am not with you I am bare I feel like I have nothing When I am with him I am thinking of you If I make a mistake im sorry I don’t do stuff to hurt you I do stuff because I am young I don’t want to lose you I hope nothing I do makes you hate me I hope nothing I do makes me lose you I hope nothing I do makes us never speak again I hope you and I are forever

*Sad what we go through just for the chance to be loved...even sadder what we go through when we don't get that chance after wishing and hoping for it for so long.*

People think I'm lying about being hurt because they see me laughing.. little do they know I laugh to keep from crying..

*not all scars show*
*not all wounds heal*
somtimes you can't always see*
*the pain someone feels*

Imma do sum drugz... Imma fuck sum thugz... Imma drink a lot... Imma smoke sum pot... Imma do sum thingz I mite lata regret but itz all good cuz I haven't grown up yet

(_,.•´¯) TeArS r Da WoRdS
(¯`•.,_) mY hEaRt UsEs 2 ExPlAiN
(_.,.´¯) WhEn EvEn My FaKe SmILeS
(¯`•.,_) CaNt cOvEr Up My PaIn*

"Wear a mask that grins and lies; it hides our cheeks and shades our eyes.
The debt we pay to human guile, with torn and broken hearts, we smile."

Grandma once told me that "beauty is only skin deep" She was wrong.

"Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it."

"Once you've been through hell you never forget what the flames feel like

I've been broken before I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh

Have a good cry, wash out your heart. If you keep it inside it'll tear you apart.

"I always thought that when it rained, it was because angels cried, because they knew someone had passed away. Now I know they don't cry for those who have died, they cry because they feel the pain of those who are left behind."

"The only reason that you don't have answers is because you've been too scared to ask yourself the right questions." –

and after a while, you can work on points for style,
Like the club tie, and the Firm handshake,
A certain look in the eye and an easy smile,
You have to be trusted, by the people that you lie to,
So that when they turn their backs on you,
You'll get the chance to put the knife in

"I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude

~*~I imagine the reason that people hold onto hatred so stubbornly is cuz if the hate is removed the pain will let in~*~

Sometimes I lie awake, and I ask, 'Where have I gone wrong?' and then a voice says, 'This is going to take more than one night.'

"You can never fully understand what anyone is going through until it has happened to you.".

"Don't you mess, With a little girl's dream, 'Cause she's liable to grow up Mean.

"If I had to do it all over again,
I wouldn't change what I did ...
I would change how i felt

When I was young, the smallest trick of light, could catch my eye, then life was new and every new day I thought that I could fly. I believed in what I hoped for, and I hoped for unseen things, I had wings and dreams could soar, I just don't feel like flying anymore.

When the tears
try to introduce themselves
just smile.
Even if it's just for a little while.

When no1 trust you, your life is goin gown hill, and you find urself crying urself to sleep just smile and wear make up, no1 will care or no you feel different because they will never see unless they stare in your eyes and sea the true you *still no1 knows me*

High School
You think you know who your true friends are? Well wait until high school and see who's there for you when your ex boyfriend spreads rumors about you. Think you'll never do drugs? Wait until it's right there in front of you and all your "friends" are doing it. Think you're tough? Wait until you say the wrong thing to the wrong person see who backs down first. Think you're smart? Well wait until you have an English paper, science project, history test and a 10 -minute monologue due tomorrow just because you were absent for one day. Think you're cool? Well wait until you're the only one who doesn't make the cheerleading squad, see how cool you are then. You think you're popular? Wait until your parents just cant afford the new tommy hilfiger jacket everybody has. Think you'll never fall in love? Wait until a guy looks deep in your eyes and says he loves you. Think you'll never get your heart broken? Well wait until that same guy who said he loved you is holding hands with another girl. Think you wont have sex? Wait untill the guy you think you love says it will make you closer. What would you do then? Think you'll never have an eating disorder? Wait until everyone else in school weighs 100 pounds and you're going on 150. Think that you're always going to be your own individual? Well wait until one morning when you look in the mirror and you're just like everybody else.

ºIt is such a secret place, the land of tears

ºI need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find, I can't see the things that make true happiness, I must be blind

ºYou're on the verge of going crazy and your hearts in pain
No one can hear, but you're screaming so loud
you feel like you're all alone, in a faceless crowd

ºthe darkness of my loneliness fills the hollow of my life

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh,
But I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry

WhEn WoRsT cOmEz To WoRsT..wE gOtTa StAy ToUgH b/c only together kan we make it through everything and everyone that’ makes our relation ship rough

There are two things every woman wants to know one, that a man really loves her, and two, that he's never going to let her go

Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... anger ... tears ... laughter. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it.

The person that you hurt the most will always stand by you in whatever you do and give you all they've got, even when all they've got left is tears ... if it's true love. And, if they can get through all the pain and still love you just as much, then I guess that means what's meant to be will be, and nothing can tear a love that strong apart ... ever.

"People say "Oh no she's not in love...She's too young to love", but they don't realize what it's like for me to be looking at you...seeing the world right before my eyes

*I love you too much to start liking you so don't ever tell me you want to be friends

*Never give up if u still wanna try*
*Never wipe your tears if u still wanna cry*
*Never settle for the answer if u still wanna know*
*Never say u don't like him if u can't let him go*

i gave you my heart you broke it in two, but i knew from the start i was meant for you. So why aren't we together? I dont understand... I will love you forever, just take my hand. Lets work this out, it'll be ok. I know without a doubt, I need you today and forevermore, I just want things to be like they were before...

single, sexy, free to flirt... wanna be in love, don't wanna get hurt

"And when the future hinges on the next words that are said, don't let logic interfere, believe your heart instead."

nothing is more painful then realizing you hurt the one you truly care about

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I cannot accept, And the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people I had to kill today because they pissed me off. And also, help me to be careful of the toes I step on today as they may be connected to the ass that I may have to kiss tomorrow. Amen"

"The average girl would rather have beauty than brains because she knows the average guy can see better than he can think"

Violence is not the answer, however it is a pretty good guess

Someday we will look back on this, laugh nervously, and change the subject

Conscience is what hurts when everything else feels so good.

The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends.
I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time.
And then you die. What's that? A bonus?
I think the life-cycle is all backwards.
You should die first and get it all over with.
Then you live in an old age home.
You get kicked out when you're too young.
You get a gold watch.
You go to work.
You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement.
You do drugs, alcohol and party.
You get ready for high school.
You go to grade school and become a kid.
You play. You have no responsibilities.
You become a little baby & go back into the womb.
You spend your last nine months floating...
Then, you finish off as an orgasm. I like it.

-"It's much easier to turn a friendship into love, than a love into friendship."

It is the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance.
It is the dream afraid of waking, that never takes a chance.
It is the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give.
And the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live.

yOu cant see i'm hurting
yOu cant nOtice the pain
it feels like everyOne else
is sitting in the sunshine
while i'm [D.R.O.W.N.I.N.G]
in the R.A.I.N

I'm a strong gurl...
keeping my stuff in line...
even w/ tears streamin down my cheek
i manage to say those 2 words...
i m* f i n e.

GuEsS iM DiFfErEnt
ThEn ThE OlD mE
BuT U NeEd 2 AcCePt
AnD TrY To See
ThAt JuSt BeCaUsE
Im NoT LiKe BeForE
YoU dOnT HaVe To HaTe Me Or IgNoRe
So Im SoRrY If Im DifFErEnT
If Im AcTiN StrAnGe
BuT LiKe It Or Not p*e*o*p*l*e*c*h*a*n*g*e

:*WhY pPl sTaRt rUmOrS *N* gOsSip*
**i dUnNo**
*tHeY mAkE uP lIeS *N* cAlL u*
**a HoE**
*tHeY r NiCe 2 Ur fAcE but....*
**bEhInD uR bAcK**
*tHeY tALk sHiT *N* WoNt*
**TaKe It bAcK**
*bUt wHeN yOu jUsS pUnChEd*
**uR bFfL iN dA face**
*iT fElT pReTtY dAmN gOod cUz u*
**jUsS pUt tHaT BytCh bAcK**
*iN hEr PlAcE!!!*

Some people build walls to keep others out but
i build walls to see who really cares
enough to knock them down

WeN i PuSh u AwAii [DoN`T] qO . . .iTs TiMeZ LiKe dAt WeN I nEeD u Da mOsT!!

I wish i could just make
you turn around «- - - - ,
'- - - -» Turn around
and see me cry

×º×SoMeTiMeZ aLl U cAn Do×º×
×º×Is SmiLe N WaLk AwAy×º×
×º×HiDe Ur TeArS×º×
×º×N pReTeNd U r OkAy×º×

thiS isNt a peRfeCt woRlD.. pEopLe dO geT hUrT.. yoU smiLe wHeN yoU feEl liKe crYiN.. yOu acT LikE yoUrE oKay wheN yoUrE faLLiN aPaRt iNsiDe.. and you LeT iT gO- yOu moVe oN.. b/C thEreS noThiN elSe yoU cAn dO

people say i've c.h.a.n.g.e.d
but im just finally being m.y.s.e.l.f

Forget what you've ((-heard-))
((-recognize-)) what you see
I know you've heard ((-rumors-))
((-forget-)) them
Here's the ((-real-)) me...

s0metimes i feel jealous inside ; imagining that
s0me0nE c0uLd pLEaSe y0u m0re tHeN mEe ...
i queSs its my insECurity aCtinq up a bit beCuz
i kn0e im n0t the m0st bEautiful , m0st fun , 0r
even the m0st excitinq pers0n y0uLl ever mEet
but i d0 kn0e that n0 mattEr h0w hard and l0nq y0u sEarCh , y0u wiLL
[ N e V e R ] finD a qiRL
wh0 l0vs y0u nd cares ab0uT y0u tHe wAy i d0

dun worrii b0ut me 0r wud i d0
wut happenz in mi life haz nuttin 2 d0 wit u
so keep ur mouth shut n st0p talkn shyt
becuz i'm tired 0f all u people nd ur
> d r a m a b u l l s h y t

u wAtCh hEr WaLk DowN tHe hAlL, BiG sMiLe, LauGhiN, LoOks So HaPpY...u'D nEvEr gUeSs tHt sHe gOeS hOme aNd cRiEs hErSeLf tO sLeEp EvErYniGht...

wHeN. U. HaVe. A. [sMiLe] On Ur [FaCe] a. [TwInKLe] in. Ur. [EyE] oNLy uR (T – R – U - E) gUrLz (KnO) |::|uR. aBoUt. To. (BrEaK) DoWn. ANd. (CrY)|::|

dO yOu ever juSt qeT thaT ~ feeLinG ~ wheRe'
yOu dOnT wanT tO __ taLk tO `'*'´ anybOdy
yOu dOnT wanT tO =[ smiLe ]= anD yOu dOnT`
wanT tO fake beinG haPpy - buT aT the [saMe TiMe]
yOu dOnt knOw exaCtLy whaT is - wrOnG eiTheR

anYonE caN maKe yOu smiLe oR cRy
bUt iT taKes sOmeoNe SpeciaL tO maKe
yOu sMiLe whEn yOu aLreaDy haVE
t.E.a.R.s.i.N.y.O.u.R.e.Y.e.s.

kEeP on LaUgHin + crYin
da s0undEzT mindz.r da mozT insanE
+ da HaPpiEzT hEarTz.HoLd da mozT pain

FoR ThE OnEs WhO dOnT UnDeRsTaNd
WaLk A MiLe iN mY sHoEs
SeE wHaT i SeE-fEeL wHaT i fEeL
ThEn rEaLiZe WhY i Do
...wHaT i Do...

I need a boy to ::hold me:: and say its ok
not a boy to :*Kiss Me*: n walk away

× . . . . . : ` you can`t hurt sumone. :
: unLess you really meAn' :
: Somethinq to them x|3

a person can apologize endlessly
`nd even if you forgive them sometimez
you cant forget tha pain they`ve caused you

if someone hurt you, betrays you or breaks your heart
forgive them because they have helped you
learn about trust and the importance
of being cautious to whom
you open your heart to

everyone sees who I appear 2 b
but only a few know the real me
u only see what i choose 2 show
theres so much behind my smile
[ y o u j u s t d o n t k n o w ]

For [ Once ] I Wish I Could Just LQQK In The Mirror .n .d. Be Proud Of What I See, ~ Proud Of What I Turned Out To Be . . . And Be Proud To Be Just Me

€-*AlL i CaN dO*€
€-*iS sMiLe N wAlK aWaY*-€
€-*•HiDe AlL mY tEaRs AnD•*-€
€-*•°jUs PrEtEnD iM oKaY°•*-€

they call her for dinner -- she makes up a reason she looks at her arm and [ rolls down her sleeves ] her mother is starting, to see through her lies and last night her father had tears in his eyes they rise in the | morning | and sleep in the dark and even though nobody`s lookin »»
sheS slOwLy falLing apaRt

i`M tWiiStEd bEcAuSe oNe
siide oF mEeH iiS tEL|iing
mE tHaT ii nEeDa mOvE on
On ThE oThEr SiiDe ii waNt
tOo breAk dOwN nD ` Cry

i'Ve LeArNeDd aLoT oVeRr tHe yEaRs, tHr0ugH
FaKe sMiLeSz aNd uNsEeNn TeArSz, FriEnDdz
s0mEtiMeSz aReNt f0reVeRr AnDd tHaT LoVe
d0eSnT aLwAySz LaSt .. hApPy mEm0riEs StAy
WiTh y0u .. 'Th0sE m0mEnTs g0 By FaSt* sOo0
eNj0y ThiNgSz tHaTt g0 oN n0w cUz tHe g0oD
sTuFf ||ll[ ( ( n E v E r L a s T s ) ) ]ll|| x0xo0

_i smiLe & aCt liKe nOthings wrOng_
_itS called putting shit aSide & Being strOng_

iTz jUz 1 oF dEm daYz ..
EvErY TimE i cLozE mY iiz
i c visionz oF u+i
i goT 2 LaUgH 2 kEeP 4r0m crYin
2 HidE aLL da Pain insidE
..cUz i canT geT u oFF mY mind

Sometimes I just wish I could press fast forward to see if it's all worth it

.:*:. I'd Like To Stay A Secret,
Like Walking In The Dark,
If No One Knows ~ No One Cares,
No One Breaks Your Heart.:*:.

iM oLd EnOuGh To KnOw BeTTeR
bUt YoUnG eNoUgH tO nOt GiVe A fUcK
fOrce a smile . blInk away tHa tearz
im ((suPPosd to)) b sTrong
((suPPosed to)) have nO fearz
but* im fiNdin it hard nOt to fRown
im suCha [ s t r o N g ] perSon
..why am i breaking down..

ii aCt LiiKe ii d0nt caRe
BuT DeEp d0wn iiM LiieN
cUz eVeRytiiMe ii HeaR y0u
bRaq aBowT heR.. ii sTarT .DiiEn.

tRy FeElIn My PaIn
tRy RuNnIn ThRo My VeInZ
TrY bEiN tHaT kNiFe SlIt ThRo My WrIsT
TrY bEiN tHe AnGeR iN mY fIsT
TrY LoOkIn ThRo ThEsE eYeS
tRy LiStEnIn To AlL tHoSe LiEz
TrY bEiNg Me AnD yOu'LL sEe
WhY i DoNt CaRe WhAt -yOu- ThInK oF mE

i`m gonna let my silence speak fOr itself
and i just hope that you will hear it

PeOple act all nice- then turn arOund n talk shyt
wen it cOmes toO trustin peOple i FuCkEn -->> q U i T

The Tears come and
go - - > but it`s the
memories that kill u

I ReaLized iM iN OnE oF thOse StaGes
wHeRe iM sO maD aT thE wHoLe wOrLd
iM daring it tO pUsH mE oFF a cLiFf
-jUs tO sEe iF i cAn [fLy]-

**...Tired of T.R.Y.I.N.G...
...Sick of C.R.Y.I.N.G...
...Ya, I'm still S.M.I.L.I.N.G...
...But inside I'm D.Y.I.N.G.**

You Can't See
I'm Hurting
Your 2 Blind
To Notice My Pain
It Feels Like
Everyone’s Sitting
In Sunshine
While 'I’m
Drowning In Rain

We're all going to die someday so why not just kill ourselves now?

See my reflection in the blade
Watch the years begin to fade
Feel a tear run down my face
I really hate this fucking place
It hurts to think of happy times
Not that many come to mind
Hide the pain from deep within
Feel the metal touch my skin
Slit the life lines, blood runs red
In a while i'll be dead
Feel the presence of grim reaper
As i get dizzy and a little weaker

Alcohol and nervous wits
Razor blades and bloody wrists
Deceiving eyes trapped in lies
cant escape their painful cries

lets cut our wrists like cheap coupons
and say that death was on sale today

Just because someone looks like they havinq a briqht and sunny day
Inside they [ c o u l d ] be screaminq because everythinq aint okay.

the |X|s t r o n g e s t|X| person you see all day ...may be the one... who cries themself to sleep at night

you watch her walk down the hall
biq smile, lauqhinq, looks so happy
you`d never know she goes home
n cries herself to --» s l e e p

Im gunna draw a picture,
a picture on my wrist,
Ill draw it with a razor,
Ill draw it on my wrist,
as i draw this picture,
a fountain will appear,
and suddenly all my problems will slowly disappear …

tEaRs ThAt StAiN mY PiLLoW, dReAmS tHaT sEeM sO rEaL, sCrEaMs BaReLy HeArD, cUtS i BaReLy FeeL...

There's Nothing You Could Ever Do Or Say 2 Change Me, There’s NoOne In This World Who Can Save Me..

help me rid my tears of sadness help me end mylife of madness please stop dis anger inside I feel as tho im meant 2 die

I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the pain on the inside

Life. Hope. Truth. Trust. Faith. Pride. Love. Lust. Pain. Hate. Lies. Guilt. Laugh. Cry. Live. Die.

sometimes i am so numb
i need to feel the pain to remind me that im still here
im never sure anymore
life just seems to go on without me
leaving me in its dust
noone notices anyway
no one notices anything about me
i do it for the blood and the pain
to tell me that im real and my life is not a dream
but im still not sure
im not sure about anything anymore

*~Peoples these dayZ r soo pathetic
*~Tryin to fit in, i wasted most of my life
*~Now to my wrists i take this knife
*~I put on this fake smile to satisfy all of u
*~If thats not enuf, wut else can i do?
*~How much more crap can i take?
*~How much longer until i break?
*~Im too ashamed to pull the trigger
*~Too proud to push down the knife
*~God i wish sum1 would take my life!
*~Wuts the point of living when u constantly feel sad
*~This is the life i wish i never had...

iVe CoMe 2 thE pOiNT wHeRe iM nOt gOnNa CaRe...CuZ cRyinG nEvEr GeTs mE nE WhErE

I’ve come to the .POINT. Where nothing matters Anymore And Things i used to care about -Aren’t worth fighting for-

What do you do when everyone puts you down and you just cant take it anymore? Every night you cry yourself to sleep wishing you would just DIE. You feel nothings worth it anymore and when you tell people they just say your doing it for attention. Noone believe you truly feel this way. You hate yourself so much that you've tried suicide 3 times already. Yea your a cutter and your b/f asked you to stop and you try but theres is just that something you miss when you feel the knife touch your skin the certain satisfaction you get when you see that you can actually control something.Noone else can control that.Nothing is this world is right so why bother living in it!!!!!!

iM TiReD oF TrYiNg, Im TiReD oF CrYiNg, I KnOw iVe BeEn SmiLiNg BuT iNsiDe iM DyInG

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wut gave you the right to misjudge
me nd write me off on the wall ??
actin` as if you understand me in
reality you just don`t know me at
all ...... sometimes i can`t help but
wonder if this was how it`s meant
to be but if you search deep enuff
in your soul .. you`ll always find a
slight reminder of me ........ won`t
somebody tell me i just d o n` t
understand the ways of the world
today sometimes i feel like there`s
nothing to live for so i`m longing
for the days of y e s t e r d a y

if you Look inside a Girl`s
[*.H - e - a - R - t.*]
Youd see how much she
really cries
Youll find secrets hidden,
Best friends, and Lies
But what youll see the most
is hOw
l | [ HarD ] | l it iS to sTay [(strOng)]
wheN Nothing`s right
and everything is wrong

- ull jus neva kno -
soo many emotions i choose not 2 show

I used to hang on every word
Each lie was more absurd
Kept me so insecure
But now that's over
I used tah be such a nice gurl

· i could pretend · · that im not ·
· d y i n g i n s i d e ·
· but just so you kno · · i am ·

dont let anyone ever promise you that they w0n`t
ever hurt you because at oNe time or another it
will happen. the real promise is if the time you
spend toGEther wilL be w0rth the pain in the end

why am i fighting t0 live
if i`m just living t0 fight
why am i trying t0 see
when there ain`t n0thing in sight
when n0 0ne gives me a try
why am i dying t0 live
if i`m just living t0 die

life d0esn`t hurt until y0u have time t0 y0urself
t0 think ab0ut h0w things have changed
wh0 y0u`ve l0st al0ng the way
and just h0w much 0f it`s y0ur fault

y0u can`t see i`m hurting
y0u d0n`t n0tice the pain
it feels like every0ne else
is sitting in the sunshine
while i`m dr0wning in the rain

i kn0w i can st0p the pain
if i will it all away. . .

don`t try to fix me
. . .i`m not broken. .

(¯`·._)what's misery?
it*s when you don*t
keep your((chin up))
and, i.n.s.t.e.a.d, give
up all you*ve got to
[[ fall to the trauma]]

-InSiDe-
I hurt
I cry
I scream
I die
I pound
I kick
I am angry
I get sick
I live
I want out
I break
I doubt
I regret
I burn
I yearn
I feel pain
I drown

How do i deal with you
How do i deal with me
When i don't even know M y S e L f
or what it is you want from me.
How do i deal with us
How do i know what's real
When i don.t even trust myself
Or what it is i feel
And how do i deal

u will feel my anger
u will feel my pain
u will feel my torment
driving me insane
I can`t fight these feelings
they will bring you pain

the same old that brings me down
another day in this gossip town
feelin like ive been used
trying to find a better way
to make it through this in day
|[ tears ]| are the words my heart
uses to |[ explain ]| when even my
fake smiles cant cover up my |[ pain ]|

the other day,i sat down,and watched all my childhood movies
beauty and the beast,cinderella,snow white,the little mermaid
ya know all these good cute movies but there's somethin' that
i dont understand,in all of them they -all- end ((happily)) ever
after,they get the '|[perfect]|' guy that will luv them forever
.nd i dont get it, yea its really nice to dream,buht how come it
never really happens why cant i b. the perfect })i({ beautiful
grl who ends up w/ the guy of mi dreams alwayz there for me
helping me through, guiding `nd leading me to the right-paths
in my life to`succeed be happi with myself * and what ii have
in my life and be greatful for it all nd i started to cr.y cause'
i know that really`i already found priince charmiing but i n0o..
in the end of my fairytale hes neva gona end up bein mine «3

i hate it wen people ask me
if i`m okay beacuse it just
reminds me that i`m n o t

go ahead nd take a picture
nd hang it up so u can tear
me d . o . w . n

What is life?
I'm tired of life.

if nobody is perfect then why
do you expect me to be?

Save me from
myself

I keep my feelings inside
No one knows what its like to be me

When I look into the mirror
I don't see me
I see someone different
The person I want to be

I know what it feels like to want to die
How it hurts to smile even though u try
How u hurt the thangs on the inside
To get away from the stuff on the outside

Im so afraid of letting people into my life b/c
eventually thats just 1 more person I have 2
say good-bye to

yOu wOnder hOw it feels ta walk a mile inside tha shOes
Of a girl like me . . . whO dOnt gOt a thing tOo lOose
cOuld yOu step in my shOes and walk just a mile
and after all the hurt still manage tO fuccin smile

peOple say i've changed sO much
but the hOnest truth is . . i just grew up

rock bottom is when u`ve
had it up to here* ur mad..
enuff to scream but sad
enuff to t e a r

s0metimes when im al0ne ii cry
cause ii am 0n my 0wn
tha tears ii cry are bitter & warm
they fl0w wid lyfe but take n0 f0rm
ii cry because my heart is t0rn
ii find it difficult t0 carry 0n
if i had an ear t0 c0nfiding
ii w0uld cry am0ng my treasured frend
but wh0 d0 y0u kn0w that st0ps that l0ng t0 help an0ther carry 0n
tha w0rld m0ves fast & it w0uld rather pass by
then t0 st0p and see what makes 0ne cry
s0 painful & sad
and s0metimes i cry
and n0 0ne cares ab0ut why *
Tupac Shakur *

Cinderella walked on broken glass &
Sleepinq beauty let a whole lifetime pass
life is blood sweat & tears . . love means
[ * facin all ur fears * ]

You will feel my anger
You will feel my pain
You will feel my torment
driving me insane
I can`t fight these feelings
they will bring you pain

i was ))b r O u g h t(( up in pain
so y`all can`t even t O u c h me

its like im on this
*emotiOnal rollercoaster*
`nd i wanna qet off now

you don't understand me
`nd you never will
so don't start that shit
.bout knowin` how i feel.

It seems funny to me,
How Fucked things can be,
Everytime I get ahead
I feel more dead.

Its sliding through my vains and the pictures
never seemed so beautiful.
I never thought I would die alone,
with a fear that I won't describe.
They never cared. My body will prove
the point my pen never could

never say b y e
it only means f o r e v e r

i wish i was a bird
i wanna fly away...
get away from here...

"brace yourself: so if i were to fall off a
5 story building then i should relax? .. yes"

it s e e m s to rain everyday i n s i d e of me
Kiss me but dont expect miracles...

and its happend once again
ill turn to a friend
someone that understands
sees through the master plan
but everybodys gone
and ive been here for to long
to face this on my own
well i guess this is growin up

i would wish upon a star but that star
it doesnt shine

n a day like today,
all has gone w r o n g
and my life seems c r a z y
gotta hold on
smile on my face
cuz i know the sun's gunna shine my way
on a day like today
look up in the s k y
yea life's so a m a z i n g
and i know i'll be o k a y

i've felt the hate rise up in me
kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
i wander out where you can't see
inside my shell i wait and bleed

I dont know why this world keeps turning
Round and Round
But i wish it would stop
and let me off right now

ii may seem like ii have it all
m0ney, l0okz , happinesz
but if y0u l0ok cl0se en0uqh
y0u`ll see that ii`m n0t as
happy as ii may seem

have yOu ever felt sO alOne that nOthinq
makez sense, well datz hOw i feel rite nOw
i feel as if im facin everythinq by myself
with nOthinq but tearz 'nd a [ f a k e ] smile

((*you watch her walk down the hall
big smile, laughing, seems so happy
youd never guess that she goes home
and cries her self to sleep..everynight*))

· i could pretend · · that im not ·
· d y i n g i n s i d e ·
· but just so you kno · · i am ·

i h.a.t.e it when people ask me if im o.k.a.y
because it always reminds me that im not

I want to be `*remembered*´ as the
[girl]who could brighten up everyone`s day..
even if she couldn`t
-»brighten upher own.. I
want to be remembered as
the one to put a .·´¯`»smile on your face
even if no one could make her s m i l e..
I want to be remember as the funny girl
the one who would make everyone laugh
even if n o t h i n g seemed funny to her

living // dead // girl

she felt that her whole life
was some kind of dream and she sometimes
wondered whose it was
and whether they were enjoying it.

I tried to warn you.
I tried to say that I'd walk away.
I tried to tell you.
But no one listens to me anyway.

for all the things you said id never do
for all the things you said that were untrue
for all the times you made me feel alone
said id never make it on my own
....I*m Proving You Wrong ....

I can`t hear you
Or I don`t want to

Everything You Say
Means Nothing Anymore

I soak up all the pain in »s.i.L.e.n.c.e«
Accepting the fact I have no one »l.e.f.t«

are you afriad of a blade made of a razor w/ aids?
blood drippin from it rippin ur stomache up
ffrom the waist up you talk alotta junk but ull never
be ill tho im strong enoff to beat u 2 death
with a feather piloow

-¦- Lonley & Confused -¦-
-¦- Abandoned & Used -¦-

no matter what i do it's never good enough
i give all that is ME
still it's never enough

cut your ribbon
as it follows you
everything, everything
how can you sleep at night?
as it falls apart
any thing, anything
how can you sleep at night?

run to me
cause I'm dying

behind my smiles are things you will never understand

I haven't changed, but I know I'm not the same

s e c u r i t y
So many of us young girlsâ€¦have emptiness inside.
We try to fill that hole with,â€¦friends & datiing relatiionships
We have many insecurities & think thatâ€¦maybe filling our hearts
& minds with unless
relationships we will find our security. What so many
people don't know is that no relationship, not even a good one
can give us complete security. There is a hole in us that only
God can fill. Security in Christ is so far beyond any security
that you could find in another relationship. God wants
to be the one to fill our hearts, if we will let him..?!?!

Don't pull me down, this is where I belong
I think I'm different, but I'm the same and I'm wrong

I know what it's like to be alone sitting in your room
listening to all those doubts that your parents have to say to you

And it's happened once again
I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up

"The nice thing about rain" said Eeyore
"is that it always stops. Eventually".

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most:
saying something and wishing you had not,
or saying nothing and wishing you had.

Time only heals what it can never knew scars
could grow each broken tear falls as slowly you will go.

As the people looked up At the clear blue skies,
The crash of the planes Took them by total surprise.
As the damage and destruction Began to unfold,
The people couldn't believe The stories that were told.
To see the people jump They then realized,
To see a firefighter's face.. As tears filled his eyes.
Why and who could do Such a terrible thing, To cause such
destruction And kill another human being. As we watch the
news And see strangers cry, I sit in amazement And I wonder, 'why?'.

I'm going to smile..
and make u think im happy..
im going to laugh..
so u dont see me cry..
and even if it kills me..
im going to smile.

Up all night long
and there's something very wrong
and I know it must be late
been gone since yesterday
I'm not like you guys
I'm not like you

I hate our favorite restaurant,
our favorite movie, our favorite show
we would stay up all through the night
we would laugh and get happy
and never answer the phone

We really need to see this through
we never wanted to be abused
we'll never give up, it's no use
if we're fvcked up, you're to blame

Just because someone looks like
they having a bright and sunny day
Inside they [ c o u l d ] be screaming
because everything aint okay..

What do you think? Don't cry, get hurt by lies.
The times you embarassed me I swallowed my pride
I'm tired of telling you *I got nothing to hide*

I have come to the point that nothing matters anymore
and the shit that I use to care
about is really not worth fighting for.

These are the last tears you're
ever gonna see from me.

fvck you and your pretty smile,
your eyes are cutting my skin.

dont let it go to your head
boys like you are a dime a dozen
your a touch overrated
your a lush n i hate it

........if three words could heal you
id only speak two........

Whats wrong with me?
I've wondered alot
What do other gurls have,
That I haven't got?

i take all this pain ..
i put it in rhymes
..then you get the chance
..for the very 1st time
..you get to feel the pain
..i got deep inside
..theres stuff inside of me
..like all this hate
..i dunno if i can handle
..i dunno if i can carry this weight
..i just wanna let it go
..i just wanna be free
..its time for all this hate
..to finally leave me

i never thought life would be this hard
everyone says it`ll get better
but i`m still waiting for that to happen
for this world to stop hating
so i can wake up from this nightmare that
never seems to end,
With all the hatred and
sorrow it just keeps going
Everyday is so dark and grey
theres nothing i can do
My whole world is crashing down
on me and all my dreams are..
§ h a t t e r e d

[[b e h i n d]] this innocent smile of mine,
lay [[w o r d s]] that go unsaid.
words of [[l o n g i n g]], love, anger, and hate,
all repeating [[i n s i d e]] my head

*--Everyone crys...Everyone weeps...
We all stay up late one night ...Cause
we cant go to sleep...Tears coming out...
Thoughts deep in your head...So you sit and
lie there ...And cry on your bed...You cant
help but think about all the things you had...
You cant help but wonder why they make you so sad
You cant help to think where did u go wrong....
You cant help to listen to your guys old song...
You cant help to think about him day and night ...
You cant help but wonder why this match wasnt right..
You cant help but smile everytime u see his face....
You cant help try to find someone to replace....
So your happy to see him....It's been a long time...
Your happy to see him and you dont know why...
Well dont suddenly forget he's the reason why you always cry--

no more tears,no more secrets no more liez no more
drama in our live's that wars would'nt ever start no
more leaving no more death no more cryin that right
would alway's win no more regret no more us apart'
no more leaving with a broken heartt no more sin`
friends would last forever 'nd that love would never'
-end no more live's torn apart no more deceiving no'
more sadnes no more fights that time would heal all'
hearts no more darkness no more hurt .....no more
goodbyez // this is my '*`prayer`*' for every year

Im sorry if I made you cry...
Im sorry If tears fell from your eyes...
that isnt At All what I intended To Do...
iust remember, that all the tears that fell from your eyes
fell from mine too

I Wanna Be Remembered As The Girl Who Always Smiled¦
Even When Her Heart Was Broken¦
The One Who'd Brighten Your Day¦
Even When She Couldn't Even
-Brighten Her Own-

people think im all smiles
people havent lived in my life style

the [s t r o n q e s t] person
you see all day
...may be the one...
who [c r i e s] themself
to sleep at niqht

everythinq falls
[ a P a R t ]
Even the people who never frown eventually break
d
o
w
n

When bad things didn't happen
when only skinned knees brought tears
and the night light in its socket
quieted all our fears
((Makes you wanna say "Damn I miss Those years"))

Growing up suks...not all kisses are magic
and most boys do not live up to your expectations.
But there are those times when everything
I mean, love, romance, relationships, it all
falls together perfectly and it's incredible.
It's those moments, no matter how depressingly
few and far between that make growing up worth it

You might think Im happy but
Im not going to be okay

Theres a girl in my mirror
crying tonight & theres
nothing I can tell her to make her feel alright...

Every tear that Ive cried is
a small piece of me that has died

as i look through these pictures i start to cry
cus i`m finally realizing times fly by nd i can
plan for the future buT i can`t change the the past
i just wish some of the moments i had would last x3

its like writing your name
on a foggy window and
watching it slowly fade away...

There was never anyone who
loved me enough to stay

there is no greater sorrow than to
recall happiness in the time of misery

Its kinda sad that I have learned
to deal with things like this.
Being strong means being heartless

Good things...always seem to turn
into mistakes...you wish you could
take back everything...& you wish
itd be perfect...& be PERFECT forever...
but then you realize that you cant
take back anything...knowing that
you did nothing wrong & it was something
else that caused everything to go wrong...
but no matter how much you wish for it
it will never happen...& it will never
be perfect...& you wasted so many times
crying & hurt over something...that was
never really worth all the hurt in the
first place...but even still you wish
everything would be perfect

So what if I burn this, then what?
The feelings just go away? Ill
just be pretending Im fine, like
Ive been doing my whole life
Youve been the only thing thats
right in all Ive done to think I
might not see those eyes make it
so hard not to cry...

Do you ever lay in bed hoping that
tomorrow youll wake up in the emergency
room & hear the words shes
not going to make it?...I do

Youre so typical...& I hate you.
Another day, same bullshit, this is
like a rerun of some sitcom & here
we are, screaming at each other again
you out loud & me on the inside.
Listening to the same songs over &
over again, hearing the same harsh
words replay in my head.
Yesterday is already over, today
sucks & tomorrows bound to be
just as fucked up

rock bottom is when you`ve had it
up to here. you`re mad enough to
scream but sad enough to tear ..

Our vision becomes clear
when it is blurred by tears

The bad parts are never shown in the
photo album, but its those bad parts
that helps us get from one
happy photo to the next

close my eyes and count to ten and HOPE that
everything will be wonderful again

i wont give up and i wont
break down sooner
then it seems life
[ t u R n s a R o u n d ]
andd i will be strong ..
even if it all goes wrong, when
im standing in the dark..
i still belive someonee
is watching [ o v e R me ]

Good things...always seem to turn into
mistakes...you wish you could take back
everything...& you wish itd be perfect
& be PERFECT forever...but then you realize
that you cant take back anything...
knowing that you did nothing wrong & it
was something else that caused everything
to go wrong...but no matter how much you
wish for it, it will never happen...&
it will never be perfect...& you wasted
so many times crying & hurt over something
that was never really worth all the hurt
in the first place...but even still you
wish everything would be perfect

look how
pretty
she is when she
falls
down
<3

i wish i was pretty when
i SMiLE. just like THAT GiRL.

i`m so sick and tired of acting like
i`m fine because truthfully, i`m not.
i can`t even talk to youu without
being so incredibly sadd. you were
the one person who was always
supposed to be there for me ;
myy best friend ; myy everything.
and youu ruined it all in that moment.
and i acted like it didn`t hurt.
and for a while, i didn`t think it did.
but the tears are here and now i
realize that it hurt more then
anything in the world..

its so easy to believe someone when
they tell u exactly what you wanna hear

It's hard to live in your memories
When all they do is make you cry

do u kno what its like to be me?
go thru sumthing not everyone can see?
do u kno what its like to walk in my shoes?
please stop judging me cuz im not you...

You see my soul it's kind of gray.
You see my heart, you look away
You see my wrist, I feel your pain.
You know my cheeks aren't just wet from the -rain-

If you cry because the sun has gone out of your life
then your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars

;* can it Be Theres some sorT of error
*; hard t0 stop the surmounting terr0r
is it really the end, not some crazy dream
somebody pleaSe tell me that i`m dreaming
it`s not so easy to stop from screaming
but words escape me when i try tO speak
teArs They flow but why am i crying .]]
..·:- after all i am not aFraid of dying *../
don`t believe that there is never an end

Some day ima leave it all behind
n` start a brand new page to my life
Cuz` this page is full with screw ups
As if most of my life was a mistake
Or maybe I was the mistake

Mom and Dad possessed the key
[( instant slavery )]
No need to explain the plan
No need to even bother
I'll pack my bags I swear i'll run
I wish my friends were 21

fuck This Place
I lost the war
I hate you all
Your mom`s a whore

Cuz` we lost it all
nothin lasts forever
im sorry i cant be perfect
now its just too late
and we cant go back
im sorry i cant be perfect

How
would
you
feel
If
You
were
scared
to
come
home?

It's rainin` outside
and i don't wanna go
the thinqs i feel inside
I don't let them show
the thinqs you've said
i will never let go
but until then you'll
never know

I'm Screwing up every
little thing i ever try to do
I was born to lose

I'm stuck in hell and i wanna go home

It`s been a bad day
another bad day
and all I want to do
is look at you, and
know I`m ..okay..

now i could let these dream
killers kill my self-esteem
or use my arrogance as the
steam to power my dreams

You make your misery my company

words hurt.. actions hurt more

I'm so sick of speaking words
that no one understands

I don't need a reason to kill myself, I need a reason not to

I trully hate myself;and everything in me.

I must have done something bad to deserve the pain.

Im used to the burning in my eyes now,

but I want it all to stop.

It's almost to much to take,

I want to scream to show the hatred inside,

but nobody'd hear anyway,

they just turn their heads and walk away.

They don't realize how much it hurt,

it makes my eyes burn to

think about painting the once red wrists red again.

I can't help it;

they withdraw without realizing

until there's barley anything left in me,

then walk away in anger

because they don't understand the tears.

But who can blame them;

they can't feel it as it burns in your ears,

how aweful it feels ,

how you wish you could show them the picture in your head.

The images and heartheavy,

wishing your wrists were painted red.

You wish someone was there,

someone to understand,

but the whole worlds turned their back on you

and let go of that once held hand

Close your eyes and let go,

you'll fall back on the feeling;

it only takes once to know, once held breath,

sufficating and letting go

.But why even bother to see the pain

in my heart and the images you make me see,

look into my eyes, hear me breathe,

of that sufficating breath of burden you've put on me.

~*~I Love You Baby...FOREVER, OK?~*~

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